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I could feel you with me today during my accident, I know you were there and I really need you to know how thankful I am that you were, I have had my doubts lately that you are still here, still by my side, and today was proof.
I have these moments mom, more frequent lately, where I remember once again how much I miss you. I need you so bad and some days I want to escape the reality of things and just mourn. I could cry everyday and talk about you every minute of everyday and somehow it would bring me peace for a little while. I have been remembering specific things lately about our past, like little moments we shared and things that you have said to me. Along with all the flooding memories, I’ve also begun to realize that you really did love me, even though I never thought so when you were alive. You loved me with all your heart and I can see that now.
The words I MISS YOU feel so empty, like its overused and I’m sick of saying and feeling it. I just can’t wait until heaven to see you again mom!! I cannot forget you and I’m damn scared of being alone, I’m scared of never being happy again!! Could you hold my hand? Could you help me stand? I can’t find my way through night and day. Time has not mended anything!! It has not helped me; it has left me feeling broken and alone- and I NEED MY MOM!!
I have these moments mom, more frequent lately, where I remember once again how much I miss you. I need you so bad and some days I want to escape the reality of things and just mourn. I could cry everyday and talk about you every minute of everyday and somehow it would bring me peace for a little while. I have been remembering specific things lately about our past, like little moments we shared and things that you have said to me. Along with all the flooding memories, I’ve also begun to realize that you really did love me, even though I never thought so when you were alive. You loved me with all your heart and I can see that now.
The words I MISS YOU feel so empty, like its overused and I’m sick of saying and feeling it. I just can’t wait until heaven to see you again mom!! I cannot forget you and I’m damn scared of being alone, I’m scared of never being happy again!! Could you hold my hand? Could you help me stand? I can’t find my way through night and day. Time has not mended anything!! It has not helped me; it has left me feeling broken and alone- and I NEED MY MOM!!