March 2, 2005
Ok, so it's been quite a while since I actually updated with what is going on with me. So I will take time now to tell you all what is going on.
First of all let me just say, I have made a new friend, Kelli Manning! Woohoo Go number 11!!!! I mean she's always been my friend but she is inseperable from us now! lol it's pretty funny I must admit.
The stress level around here has been far too high as well! I can't handle this stress any longer. Sunday Lydia, Kadie, and I all had emotional breakdowns. Now we are ok but the guys have gone into their frustrations and let them get to them. I can handle Chad and his frustrations because I'm use to it I guess. But Shawn, I can't handle! He is supposed to be our happiness! lol. He had and I have had amazing one on one time in the past few days and that has been incredible for me. I have really needed him lately. Like I need to hear him tell me "rebekah you are thinking too much about this!" Our friendship seems to have deepened b/c of our heart to hearts.
Lydia went home last night and I was so sad b/c I was all alone in my room. I don't like that. She and I talked Sunday. It was good. We both told each other the exact same thing and now we are great. Gosh I'm going to miss her so much this summer. I can't think about that right now...no more crying! lol
Chad and I are good. For everyone that I KNOW will ask, we are NOT dating! lol I knew that would come up somewhere so I figured I'd clear it up first and for all. We talked though and that turned out really well. He and I have had a lot of amazing conversations since that talk. I'm really relieved that everything was put out in the open. I love just talking to him.
So Friday lydia and i leave for Amelia's! i'm really excited about it! I can't wait to meet Amelia! If she's anything like Lyd then holy cow this will be tons of fun! I think i'm more excited about being able to go home though. I miss my friends. I miss being called by Abby B and Jess K at like 9:30 saying "meet us at the summit" and being able to see them and talk instead of just talking online or on the phone. Hopefully I'll even get to see Brandon. I miss him so much. why do i love that boy so much? gosh i would do anything for him but somehow i get so frustrated with him b/c i don't get that back. but i'm NOT going to get on that soap box right now.
ok well i must go wax lyd's pits and study for a test and read philosophy....yeah picked that over going bowling for FREE!!! holy cow what a nerd i am!
First of all let me just say, I have made a new friend, Kelli Manning! Woohoo Go number 11!!!! I mean she's always been my friend but she is inseperable from us now! lol it's pretty funny I must admit.
The stress level around here has been far too high as well! I can't handle this stress any longer. Sunday Lydia, Kadie, and I all had emotional breakdowns. Now we are ok but the guys have gone into their frustrations and let them get to them. I can handle Chad and his frustrations because I'm use to it I guess. But Shawn, I can't handle! He is supposed to be our happiness! lol. He had and I have had amazing one on one time in the past few days and that has been incredible for me. I have really needed him lately. Like I need to hear him tell me "rebekah you are thinking too much about this!" Our friendship seems to have deepened b/c of our heart to hearts.
Lydia went home last night and I was so sad b/c I was all alone in my room. I don't like that. She and I talked Sunday. It was good. We both told each other the exact same thing and now we are great. Gosh I'm going to miss her so much this summer. I can't think about that right now...no more crying! lol
Chad and I are good. For everyone that I KNOW will ask, we are NOT dating! lol I knew that would come up somewhere so I figured I'd clear it up first and for all. We talked though and that turned out really well. He and I have had a lot of amazing conversations since that talk. I'm really relieved that everything was put out in the open. I love just talking to him.
So Friday lydia and i leave for Amelia's! i'm really excited about it! I can't wait to meet Amelia! If she's anything like Lyd then holy cow this will be tons of fun! I think i'm more excited about being able to go home though. I miss my friends. I miss being called by Abby B and Jess K at like 9:30 saying "meet us at the summit" and being able to see them and talk instead of just talking online or on the phone. Hopefully I'll even get to see Brandon. I miss him so much. why do i love that boy so much? gosh i would do anything for him but somehow i get so frustrated with him b/c i don't get that back. but i'm NOT going to get on that soap box right now.
ok well i must go wax lyd's pits and study for a test and read philosophy....yeah picked that over going bowling for FREE!!! holy cow what a nerd i am!