Apr 05, 2005 01:20
well.. i dont really know what to write, the last couple of weeks haven't been very fun.
i guess it all started on the 15th of march, the two mnonth aniversery(? o.o tired..) of me and my girl. when she asked me if i felt that little extra thing, which kinda made me panic: maybe theres something i am mising, considering my previous thoughts about love. i might have shared some of my thoughts and maybe some doubts.. but i just can't lie to her.. anyways the next time we met we went to the movies and saw "the ring two" so we didn't get much time to talk. and the next time after that we talked about my feelings and i said that i liked her and she makes me happy, and i didnt know what else there could be. then she said that she had thought that i was going to brake up with her and that she was prepared and stuff so now she had to think about it. the next time we met after that, which was last friday. she broke up with me :( because when she had been preparing for me to break up with ehr she had thought about her situation at home. which is bad. abd when we became a couple she thought that things would get better because they were moving and stuff, but it didnt.. it got worse.. and when she has problems at home she cant really do anything else she doesnt have the strenght(orka? o.o) and since she hardly had time to see me as it was she thought i was best to break up. and since i dont want her to feel bad because of me i agreed more or less. so now were just friends. and i am sad. but i kinda knew that she was going to break up with me so i wasnt that shocked so i'll be alright with a little time i guess.
i have also started going to driving school and stuff so i can get my license before i go to the army. but right now i am in a phase of "i don't want to" so its a bit rough but i'll get through it.. i get through most things..
thats it for now.. i will try to update a bit mroe ofter but i havnt been in the mood to do anything lately.