Warning: New Years Plans Subject to Explode in 10..9...8...
I had no idea that there was a correlation for how long it takes a woman to get off and self-esteem; and according to my roommate (who NEVER fails to point out ALL of my shortcomings), I have a self -esteem problem that affects other things that are supposed to make my sex life better. Also, according to her, I am going about the whole dating process the wrong way too, oh and while I'm at it, my breasts apparently aren't up to snuff either!!*** Fucking A! Doesn't she realize that being overcritical is pushing my self-esteem even lower than it already is??? Goddamn! I informed her of this fact, and that being diagnosed with major depressive disorder and anxiety is kind of a BIG indicator that hey, maybe this kid isn't all right (as far as self-esteem issues go). So while I'm the world-class fuck-up here, at least I may have a decent New Year's depending on where Liz and I go.
I'm actually curious to see where we go and what happens because we have a choice: go to Decatur to Twain's and subject ourselves to fate and the whims of her boyfriend's sister (who was supposed to hook us up with some free passes and discounts), or we could go to American Pie and check out the scene there (which, from what I've heard, is amusing). I will probably know by tomorrow what we're doing for sure--and you can also be sure that there will be photo-evidence of any heinous drunken crimes we commit. Maybe I'll meet someone who can distract me for a while...who knows? I'm also curious as to how long my new top will stay up, seeing as it is strapless, black, and has some beaded stuff on the front. It was a little more than what I wanted to spend ($24), and not the lovely crimson I scoured 10 stores for (it's my signature black), but it looks great on me and that's all I care about. Now if I can do something with this nappy head of mine, I may turn out looking pretty hot as 2007 rolls in. It feels weird celebrating New Year's single, but I may meet some interesting people, even if they aren't who I had in mind, I might have FUN. So I'm feeling less pessimistic about New Year's than normal--and we all know how much of a pragmatist I am.
Beth and I are going to look at two apartment places tomorrow and possibly try to make a decision before January gets underway. She's stuck on the 3 br/2ba deal which we could afford if I didn't eat for 12 months, and some other floorplans that looked great on paper, but may be vetoed in person. Personally, I wouldn't mind if we just renewed our lease for 6 months where we're at, because paying more, is something I just can't afford right now, especially since my 2nd job is short on hours now and the next paycheck from there will barely buy me a decent Wal-mart bottle of wine. I may be going into overtime at B&N soon if it gets bad.
Here's what I hope for in 2007:
>>To have money to live decently on
>> To build better relationships with my family and friends
>> To pass the GRE decently
>> To get into grad school
>> To find someone completely worthy of dating who doesn't play mind games (or phone games for that matter)
>> To get a volunteership at a museum on weekends
>>To be able to lower my current debt and not make any new debt
>> Amazing sex
>> Good health due to amazing sex
>> To find out what makes me happy and do it frequently
>> To finally obtain "Samurai Saga" from that website in Australia and expand my [small] Japanese film collection
It's not much, but it's all I hope for at this point since my life is drastically unbalanced ( all work and no play makes Jen a very dull girl). So please God, Mary, Jesus, Buddha, Krishna, Allah, Mohammed (pbh), Kami-sama, and any important deity I left out---let me have a good and prosperous 2007 and take pity on me because this is the year I turn 25 and am therefore, an old maid!!
And to all of you who have followed this horrible train-wreck of a LiveJournal but could not look away, I wish you a happy, prosperous, loving New Year--and may all your wildest dreams come true!!
I'm actually curious to see where we go and what happens because we have a choice: go to Decatur to Twain's and subject ourselves to fate and the whims of her boyfriend's sister (who was supposed to hook us up with some free passes and discounts), or we could go to American Pie and check out the scene there (which, from what I've heard, is amusing). I will probably know by tomorrow what we're doing for sure--and you can also be sure that there will be photo-evidence of any heinous drunken crimes we commit. Maybe I'll meet someone who can distract me for a while...who knows? I'm also curious as to how long my new top will stay up, seeing as it is strapless, black, and has some beaded stuff on the front. It was a little more than what I wanted to spend ($24), and not the lovely crimson I scoured 10 stores for (it's my signature black), but it looks great on me and that's all I care about. Now if I can do something with this nappy head of mine, I may turn out looking pretty hot as 2007 rolls in. It feels weird celebrating New Year's single, but I may meet some interesting people, even if they aren't who I had in mind, I might have FUN. So I'm feeling less pessimistic about New Year's than normal--and we all know how much of a pragmatist I am.
Beth and I are going to look at two apartment places tomorrow and possibly try to make a decision before January gets underway. She's stuck on the 3 br/2ba deal which we could afford if I didn't eat for 12 months, and some other floorplans that looked great on paper, but may be vetoed in person. Personally, I wouldn't mind if we just renewed our lease for 6 months where we're at, because paying more, is something I just can't afford right now, especially since my 2nd job is short on hours now and the next paycheck from there will barely buy me a decent Wal-mart bottle of wine. I may be going into overtime at B&N soon if it gets bad.
Here's what I hope for in 2007:
>>To have money to live decently on
>> To build better relationships with my family and friends
>> To pass the GRE decently
>> To get into grad school
>> To find someone completely worthy of dating who doesn't play mind games (or phone games for that matter)
>> To get a volunteership at a museum on weekends
>>To be able to lower my current debt and not make any new debt
>> Amazing sex
>> Good health due to amazing sex
>> To find out what makes me happy and do it frequently
>> To finally obtain "Samurai Saga" from that website in Australia and expand my [small] Japanese film collection
It's not much, but it's all I hope for at this point since my life is drastically unbalanced ( all work and no play makes Jen a very dull girl). So please God, Mary, Jesus, Buddha, Krishna, Allah, Mohammed (pbh), Kami-sama, and any important deity I left out---let me have a good and prosperous 2007 and take pity on me because this is the year I turn 25 and am therefore, an old maid!!
And to all of you who have followed this horrible train-wreck of a LiveJournal but could not look away, I wish you a happy, prosperous, loving New Year--and may all your wildest dreams come true!!