Strangers (Ch.5/7)
Title: Strangers (Ch.5/7)
Rating: NC-17 (overall)
Warnings/Pairings: AU, Kurtbastian, dirty cyber talk, eventual sexy times, Klaine, cheating (depends what you consider it)
Word Count: 2,006/15,392
Summary: From the GKM: Kurt and Sebastian start talking through an online chatroom, not realizing it's the other. They develop a friendship that starts to lead into more, at which point Kurt has to decide what to do with Blaine.
A/N: Everything is canon with Sebastian up until "Extraordinary Merry Christmas" (3x09), so no slushie crime and nothing to do with Karofsky. Basically, Kurt just has established that he dislikes Sebastian and thinks he wants Blaine. However, this is taking place after Regionals, so Kurt and Sebastian start talking sometime after Valentine's Day.
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4
violinstud is online [Saturday, March 17, 2012 1:32pm]
galaxyeyes315 (1:32pm): Good afternoon!
violinstud (1:33pm): Hey!
galaxyeyes315 (1:33pm): Does it feel weird talking this early?
violinstud (1:34pm): Yeah, it really does.
violinstud (1:34pm): Today's the big day...
Kurt smiles at the screen, feeling the butterflies in his stomach kicking way too early on a Saturday. It's finally hitting him that this is going to happen, that he's going to be meeting Spencer in person. They could be meeting at a better time in Kurt's life, but with Blaine being quiet in glee club, and Rachel, Mercedes, and Tina constantly trying to ask if Kurt's okay, Kurt really does need a distraction in the form of an attractive male friend.
galaxyeyes315 (1:35pm): Yeah, it seems so.
galaxyeyes315 (1:35pm): I'm nervous. haha.
...violinstud is typing...
violinstud (1:36pm): I bet I'm more nervous than you.
Kurt grins, feeling a blush rise up to his cheeks.
galaxyeyes315 (1:36pm): You?? Why? :P
violinstud (1:37pm): Because.
galaxyeyes315 (1:37pm): Scared of the drive down? I'd be more afraid of the highway than me, personally.
violinstud (1:38pm): Ha, oh yeah, I should probably leave soon if I want to get there by 4.
galaxyeyes315 (1:38pm): Oh, yeah, very true.
It's like the first day of school, anxiety and excitement all rolled into one.
Will they hug when they first meet? Kiss? What if Spencer thinks he's ugly? What if--OH MY GOD. HE THINKS MY NAME IS KORY.
As Kurt's heart pounds in his chest, contemplating between telling Spencer now or later that his name is, indeed, Kurt Hummel, Spencer says they should meet by the large fountain in the middle of the mall for dramatic effect.
violinstud (1:46pm): Just... when you meet me, don't be pissed, okay? I need to tell you something.
galaxyeyes315 (1:46pm): I need to tell you something, too.
violinstud (1:47pm): Really?
Kurt decides it'll be better to tell the truth in person.
galaxyeyes315 (1:48pm): Yes. I'm excited to meet you, Spencer. :)
violinstud (1:48pm): You too, galaxy. See you soon.
violinstud has disconnected [Saturday, March 17, 2012 1:49pm]
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Standing patiently by the large fountain is a lot harder than Kurt thought it would be. The ideas of waiting and patiently and standing still don't really work for Kurt right now. What if he trips on himself and flies into the fountain when Spencer shows up? Please, if a supreme being does exist and is listening to my thoughts, do not let me fall in. I will kiss babies, be nice to people I hate, and never listen to Nickelback for as long as I live.
He continues to contemplate his demise even as someone taps him on the shoulder from behind. For a moment, Kurt feels his face go pale and his heart come to a complete stop. Holy shit, Sp--SEBASTIAN?
Standing a few inches taller, wearing a red and white striped long sleeved polo, and anxiously smiling out a "hey, Kurt" is Sebastian Smythe. Sebastian. What?
Kurt automatically glares at him, a small blush forming on his cheeks with the knowledge that Spencer will arrive any minute, see Sebastian, and possibly think that Sebastian is Kory. No. This can't happen right now.
"Sebastian, what are you doing here? Can we talk later? Or never? I'm supposed to meet someone."
"Oh, really? Who?"
"Sp--my friend." Kurt continues to glare, looking around to make sure Spencer doesn't walk up and see Sebastian here.
"Kurt..."
"Sebastian, really, this isn't a good time."
"No, Kurt. I think it is."
Suddenly, Kurt notices how pale Sebastian looks, too. He studies Sebastian's face for any sign that this is a mistake, but his eyes just stare back at Kurt with worry and hopeful curiosity.
Green eyes.
Sebastian licks his lips nervously and clears his throat, trying to expose his cocky grin, but it falls back to a hesitant smile. "Galaxyeyes315?"
All the blood feels like it's draining from Kurt's face, but somehow, he can still feel his cheeks burning as he puts a hand over his mouth like he's about to puke. "...You've got to be fucking kidding me--I..." Spencer has been Sebastian this entire time. Sebastian is Spencer. There is no Spencer, there is only Sebastian. How? What, when, where, and why?
Sebastian doesn't say anything for over a minute. He could be apologizing and saying "just kidding!" but Kurt would never know, because he's too busy gaping and gasping in horror, realizing he's cyber sexed with Sebastian. Kurt has told Sebastian things, even flirted with him. His arms fling down. The words take effort to form, but he finally manages to shout. "You knew? How?"
Finally remembering he's in a public place, not to mention the mall he frequents, Kurt tries to keep his voice down to a minimum. He's still in shock, but he's spent too many years trying to act calm in public to not let his skills kick in now. He doesn't want to look at Sebastian's face ever again, but when Sebastian starts offering an explanation, he can't help but want to see in the boy's face why the hell he was talking to Kurt for so long even though he knew who Kory was.
"...Well, for starters, I have a buddy that goes to West Lima High and he said that no one that matched your description went to the school or was in their glee club. He's a pretty big gossiper and knows everyone. Kory is kind of close to Kurt. No one watches TLC and goes to bed by 11:30 but people like you. And once you slipped that your boyfriend was named Blaine and went single on Facebook the same time Kory told me his boyfriend broke up with him, it was kind of all over."
Kurt's too embarrassed to glare back at him. "...And you still wanted to meet me even though you knew it was me?"
It must be a full moon tonight, because Sebastian is acting shy and beginning to blush, and if that's not the oddest thing Kurt has ever seen, then--Sebastian's blushing. Blushing.
"...Oh my god. What's going on? I thought you liked Blaine?"
Suddenly, a light bulb goes off in Kurt's head. Sebastian's staring at him like Blaine used to when he thought he did something wrong, when he thought he disappointed Kurt. Sebastian's starting to look less and less like just a Dalton uniform. Kurt's starting to believe that this very well is Spencer, but no. There is no way Sebastian is this understanding or actually likes him. That doesn't make any sense.
Sebastian does his best to stare back at him, but he's not sure Kurt even wants him to. He feels anxious. "...I did when I first met him, yeah. But then I realized he really was just an innocent school boy. You're the one with all the personality. You're staring daggers at me right now for christ's sake, and I'm trying to explain to you that I like you."
Now, it's Kurt's turn to blush. "...No. I don't believe you. You hit on Blaine so much it's not even funny. You talk to him."
"Yes! But because I thought if I got him to like me, then he'd break up with you, and then you'd be single and I could go after you."
That's insane.
"...That's insane. How would that possibly make me want to be with you?"
In a matter of minutes, Kurt's learned how to read Sebastian's facial expressions pretty well. A look of regret shows up on Sebastian's face before he sighs and continues to feel a lot younger than he actually is.
"I don't know. It made sense. How else was I supposed to get to you?"
"Wait, did you get Blaine to break up with me?"
Sebastian seems hurts, talking with his hands to help explain his innocence. "No! Of course, not. He won't talk to me either. I stopped trying to talk to him awhile ago, especially when I started thinking that it was you I was talking to online."
Shaking his head, Kurt has to look away. "I really can't handle this right now, Sebastian. Please, don't like me. This is insane. How did it even happen? We don't have anything in common!"
Sebastian looks at Kurt like he's just stepped out of crazy town. "What!? Are you insane? All we pretty much talked about was what we have in common! How would I get good grades if I went clubbing every freaking night? Just because I like to have fun, unlike you, doesn't mean we have nothing in common!"
"You don't even know me, though. You're a stranger to me, Spencer--Sebastian. ...Everything we told each other was a lie!"
"It wasn't to me! All I lied about was my school and my name! I was completely honest. What'd you lie about? How you want me to bend you over and fuck you?"
Kurt shoots his head around to see if anyone heard. "NO. I didn't know I was talking to you! That's not fair! Never tell anyone any of that stuff ever or I will personally see to it that you can never get laid again! ...God, I can't believe you tried to get to me through Blaine and continued to pretend to be someone else when you knew it was me!"
"I'm sorry about the Blaine thing, okay? I'm not good at talking to guys I'd actually l--you know what? No, you don't get to make me the only bad guy here. You were with Blaine when we first started talking, remember? And before you try to defend yourself, I know why you did it, and I don't blame you for it. But you can't attack me for trying to get to know you, because as you can see, you kind of don't give me a chance to be myself unless you think my name's Spencer."
For a moment, Kurt doubts his anger towards him, but he's so embarrassed, and Sebastian has been built up in his head as this Sebastian for the entire time he's known him.
"How can I be sure you actually like me? How do I know that you didn't already have sex with Blaine and he's just too embarrassed to admit it? Or if I was okay with you being you, then who's not to say you would only want to get to know me for one night? First impressions mean a lot in my book, Sebastian."
Sebastian's done looking hurt. He glares and starts taking steps away from Kurt. "Fine. You know what? If you really hate me that much for being cocky and pretending to be interested in your ex, then fine. But once you realize that I could possibly be good for you, then you give me a call. I'll be in Westerville, though. Not Columbus."
He walks away before Kurt has a chance to say anything, but to be honest, Kurt's not sure he has the ability to say anything right now. There's a lot to think about.
Blaine broke up with him, he's single, Sebastian is Spencer, Spencer doesn't exist, and high school only has this one semester left. After everything he told Sebastian, Sebastian claims to still like him--has been liking him. This can't be real. Kurt didn't know it was him during the time they've been talking, and the worst part isn't even that Sebastian lied. He should have expected Sebastian of all people to be trying to pick up guys on a social networking site. But what was Kurt doing? Kurt had a boyfriend, and as much as he believes he tried to stay with Blaine and how much he's glad they didn't get to the point where they can't be friends anymore, he has no idea what he's doing or what he's prepared to do. Everything feels like it's changed over night, especially with the events of today. It's been changing for longer, hasn't it?
Truth be told, Kurt feels like a stranger to himself.
Chapter 6
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Soooo, I've been getting a lot of requests for this to update sooner, and I am really sorry, guys. I just have a LOT going on right now, and this chapter was hard to want to write because of Kurt's reaction. There's only two chapters left, so bare with me. Hopefully, the next chapter will come sooner than this one did, because it's pretty short. The last chapter will be longer.
I know some of you want to see this story from Sebastian's point of view (or at least on FF.net they do), but it is indeed more about Kurt's struggle. I'm thinking the last chapter will give us some better insight on how Sebastian feels about all of this, so just hold on! And thank you all for the lovely comments and wishing me well (I'm definitely better now ha)! Believe it or not, it does make me work on it more when I know there are lovely people reading. I'd comment back to all of you and hug you ten times, but I figure you'd rather have me spend time writing this, right? Riiight? <333
Rating: NC-17 (overall)
Warnings/Pairings: AU, Kurtbastian, dirty cyber talk, eventual sexy times, Klaine, cheating (depends what you consider it)
Word Count: 2,006/15,392
Summary: From the GKM: Kurt and Sebastian start talking through an online chatroom, not realizing it's the other. They develop a friendship that starts to lead into more, at which point Kurt has to decide what to do with Blaine.
A/N: Everything is canon with Sebastian up until "Extraordinary Merry Christmas" (3x09), so no slushie crime and nothing to do with Karofsky. Basically, Kurt just has established that he dislikes Sebastian and thinks he wants Blaine. However, this is taking place after Regionals, so Kurt and Sebastian start talking sometime after Valentine's Day.
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4
violinstud is online [Saturday, March 17, 2012 1:32pm]
galaxyeyes315 (1:32pm): Good afternoon!
violinstud (1:33pm): Hey!
galaxyeyes315 (1:33pm): Does it feel weird talking this early?
violinstud (1:34pm): Yeah, it really does.
violinstud (1:34pm): Today's the big day...
Kurt smiles at the screen, feeling the butterflies in his stomach kicking way too early on a Saturday. It's finally hitting him that this is going to happen, that he's going to be meeting Spencer in person. They could be meeting at a better time in Kurt's life, but with Blaine being quiet in glee club, and Rachel, Mercedes, and Tina constantly trying to ask if Kurt's okay, Kurt really does need a distraction in the form of an attractive male friend.
galaxyeyes315 (1:35pm): Yeah, it seems so.
galaxyeyes315 (1:35pm): I'm nervous. haha.
...violinstud is typing...
violinstud (1:36pm): I bet I'm more nervous than you.
Kurt grins, feeling a blush rise up to his cheeks.
galaxyeyes315 (1:36pm): You?? Why? :P
violinstud (1:37pm): Because.
galaxyeyes315 (1:37pm): Scared of the drive down? I'd be more afraid of the highway than me, personally.
violinstud (1:38pm): Ha, oh yeah, I should probably leave soon if I want to get there by 4.
galaxyeyes315 (1:38pm): Oh, yeah, very true.
It's like the first day of school, anxiety and excitement all rolled into one.
Will they hug when they first meet? Kiss? What if Spencer thinks he's ugly? What if--OH MY GOD. HE THINKS MY NAME IS KORY.
As Kurt's heart pounds in his chest, contemplating between telling Spencer now or later that his name is, indeed, Kurt Hummel, Spencer says they should meet by the large fountain in the middle of the mall for dramatic effect.
violinstud (1:46pm): Just... when you meet me, don't be pissed, okay? I need to tell you something.
galaxyeyes315 (1:46pm): I need to tell you something, too.
violinstud (1:47pm): Really?
Kurt decides it'll be better to tell the truth in person.
galaxyeyes315 (1:48pm): Yes. I'm excited to meet you, Spencer. :)
violinstud (1:48pm): You too, galaxy. See you soon.
violinstud has disconnected [Saturday, March 17, 2012 1:49pm]
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Standing patiently by the large fountain is a lot harder than Kurt thought it would be. The ideas of waiting and patiently and standing still don't really work for Kurt right now. What if he trips on himself and flies into the fountain when Spencer shows up? Please, if a supreme being does exist and is listening to my thoughts, do not let me fall in. I will kiss babies, be nice to people I hate, and never listen to Nickelback for as long as I live.
He continues to contemplate his demise even as someone taps him on the shoulder from behind. For a moment, Kurt feels his face go pale and his heart come to a complete stop. Holy shit, Sp--SEBASTIAN?
Standing a few inches taller, wearing a red and white striped long sleeved polo, and anxiously smiling out a "hey, Kurt" is Sebastian Smythe. Sebastian. What?
Kurt automatically glares at him, a small blush forming on his cheeks with the knowledge that Spencer will arrive any minute, see Sebastian, and possibly think that Sebastian is Kory. No. This can't happen right now.
"Sebastian, what are you doing here? Can we talk later? Or never? I'm supposed to meet someone."
"Oh, really? Who?"
"Sp--my friend." Kurt continues to glare, looking around to make sure Spencer doesn't walk up and see Sebastian here.
"Kurt..."
"Sebastian, really, this isn't a good time."
"No, Kurt. I think it is."
Suddenly, Kurt notices how pale Sebastian looks, too. He studies Sebastian's face for any sign that this is a mistake, but his eyes just stare back at Kurt with worry and hopeful curiosity.
Green eyes.
Sebastian licks his lips nervously and clears his throat, trying to expose his cocky grin, but it falls back to a hesitant smile. "Galaxyeyes315?"
All the blood feels like it's draining from Kurt's face, but somehow, he can still feel his cheeks burning as he puts a hand over his mouth like he's about to puke. "...You've got to be fucking kidding me--I..." Spencer has been Sebastian this entire time. Sebastian is Spencer. There is no Spencer, there is only Sebastian. How? What, when, where, and why?
Sebastian doesn't say anything for over a minute. He could be apologizing and saying "just kidding!" but Kurt would never know, because he's too busy gaping and gasping in horror, realizing he's cyber sexed with Sebastian. Kurt has told Sebastian things, even flirted with him. His arms fling down. The words take effort to form, but he finally manages to shout. "You knew? How?"
Finally remembering he's in a public place, not to mention the mall he frequents, Kurt tries to keep his voice down to a minimum. He's still in shock, but he's spent too many years trying to act calm in public to not let his skills kick in now. He doesn't want to look at Sebastian's face ever again, but when Sebastian starts offering an explanation, he can't help but want to see in the boy's face why the hell he was talking to Kurt for so long even though he knew who Kory was.
"...Well, for starters, I have a buddy that goes to West Lima High and he said that no one that matched your description went to the school or was in their glee club. He's a pretty big gossiper and knows everyone. Kory is kind of close to Kurt. No one watches TLC and goes to bed by 11:30 but people like you. And once you slipped that your boyfriend was named Blaine and went single on Facebook the same time Kory told me his boyfriend broke up with him, it was kind of all over."
Kurt's too embarrassed to glare back at him. "...And you still wanted to meet me even though you knew it was me?"
It must be a full moon tonight, because Sebastian is acting shy and beginning to blush, and if that's not the oddest thing Kurt has ever seen, then--Sebastian's blushing. Blushing.
"...Oh my god. What's going on? I thought you liked Blaine?"
Suddenly, a light bulb goes off in Kurt's head. Sebastian's staring at him like Blaine used to when he thought he did something wrong, when he thought he disappointed Kurt. Sebastian's starting to look less and less like just a Dalton uniform. Kurt's starting to believe that this very well is Spencer, but no. There is no way Sebastian is this understanding or actually likes him. That doesn't make any sense.
Sebastian does his best to stare back at him, but he's not sure Kurt even wants him to. He feels anxious. "...I did when I first met him, yeah. But then I realized he really was just an innocent school boy. You're the one with all the personality. You're staring daggers at me right now for christ's sake, and I'm trying to explain to you that I like you."
Now, it's Kurt's turn to blush. "...No. I don't believe you. You hit on Blaine so much it's not even funny. You talk to him."
"Yes! But because I thought if I got him to like me, then he'd break up with you, and then you'd be single and I could go after you."
That's insane.
"...That's insane. How would that possibly make me want to be with you?"
In a matter of minutes, Kurt's learned how to read Sebastian's facial expressions pretty well. A look of regret shows up on Sebastian's face before he sighs and continues to feel a lot younger than he actually is.
"I don't know. It made sense. How else was I supposed to get to you?"
"Wait, did you get Blaine to break up with me?"
Sebastian seems hurts, talking with his hands to help explain his innocence. "No! Of course, not. He won't talk to me either. I stopped trying to talk to him awhile ago, especially when I started thinking that it was you I was talking to online."
Shaking his head, Kurt has to look away. "I really can't handle this right now, Sebastian. Please, don't like me. This is insane. How did it even happen? We don't have anything in common!"
Sebastian looks at Kurt like he's just stepped out of crazy town. "What!? Are you insane? All we pretty much talked about was what we have in common! How would I get good grades if I went clubbing every freaking night? Just because I like to have fun, unlike you, doesn't mean we have nothing in common!"
"You don't even know me, though. You're a stranger to me, Spencer--Sebastian. ...Everything we told each other was a lie!"
"It wasn't to me! All I lied about was my school and my name! I was completely honest. What'd you lie about? How you want me to bend you over and fuck you?"
Kurt shoots his head around to see if anyone heard. "NO. I didn't know I was talking to you! That's not fair! Never tell anyone any of that stuff ever or I will personally see to it that you can never get laid again! ...God, I can't believe you tried to get to me through Blaine and continued to pretend to be someone else when you knew it was me!"
"I'm sorry about the Blaine thing, okay? I'm not good at talking to guys I'd actually l--you know what? No, you don't get to make me the only bad guy here. You were with Blaine when we first started talking, remember? And before you try to defend yourself, I know why you did it, and I don't blame you for it. But you can't attack me for trying to get to know you, because as you can see, you kind of don't give me a chance to be myself unless you think my name's Spencer."
For a moment, Kurt doubts his anger towards him, but he's so embarrassed, and Sebastian has been built up in his head as this Sebastian for the entire time he's known him.
"How can I be sure you actually like me? How do I know that you didn't already have sex with Blaine and he's just too embarrassed to admit it? Or if I was okay with you being you, then who's not to say you would only want to get to know me for one night? First impressions mean a lot in my book, Sebastian."
Sebastian's done looking hurt. He glares and starts taking steps away from Kurt. "Fine. You know what? If you really hate me that much for being cocky and pretending to be interested in your ex, then fine. But once you realize that I could possibly be good for you, then you give me a call. I'll be in Westerville, though. Not Columbus."
He walks away before Kurt has a chance to say anything, but to be honest, Kurt's not sure he has the ability to say anything right now. There's a lot to think about.
Blaine broke up with him, he's single, Sebastian is Spencer, Spencer doesn't exist, and high school only has this one semester left. After everything he told Sebastian, Sebastian claims to still like him--has been liking him. This can't be real. Kurt didn't know it was him during the time they've been talking, and the worst part isn't even that Sebastian lied. He should have expected Sebastian of all people to be trying to pick up guys on a social networking site. But what was Kurt doing? Kurt had a boyfriend, and as much as he believes he tried to stay with Blaine and how much he's glad they didn't get to the point where they can't be friends anymore, he has no idea what he's doing or what he's prepared to do. Everything feels like it's changed over night, especially with the events of today. It's been changing for longer, hasn't it?
Truth be told, Kurt feels like a stranger to himself.
Chapter 6
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Soooo, I've been getting a lot of requests for this to update sooner, and I am really sorry, guys. I just have a LOT going on right now, and this chapter was hard to want to write because of Kurt's reaction. There's only two chapters left, so bare with me. Hopefully, the next chapter will come sooner than this one did, because it's pretty short. The last chapter will be longer.
I know some of you want to see this story from Sebastian's point of view (or at least on FF.net they do), but it is indeed more about Kurt's struggle. I'm thinking the last chapter will give us some better insight on how Sebastian feels about all of this, so just hold on! And thank you all for the lovely comments and wishing me well (I'm definitely better now ha)! Believe it or not, it does make me work on it more when I know there are lovely people reading. I'd comment back to all of you and hug you ten times, but I figure you'd rather have me spend time writing this, right? Riiight? <333