stressed to the eyeballs
ah fuck. so i've been fighting with my mother since the thursday before mother's day....
didn't get her a gift because she kicked me out over something so rediculus and stupid (i refused to put another bill in my name that i didn't believe i could pay....a cell phone for my 13 yr old brother...). i spent my days worrying over what kind of lease i could afford and where i'd find a month-to-month payment situ...worrying over where i would be staying until i found my apartment...
so then i thought about what my brother andrew does when he's kicked out...and i did as he does, and just came back home and ignored it.
she would try to pick a fight with me, and i'd walk out or refuse to discuss it.
i mean....she isn't a rational woman. i cannot reason with her. everything runs on her emotions...there's no logic involved. and you cannot tell someone what they're feeling is wrong (however inappropiate), you can only point out how what they're feeling does not firt with the situation, and hope they can adjust themselves with the new information. i try. i fail.
i can't continue avoiding her forever, i know this. and i know there's a good possibility i'll come home to find all my belongings on the front lawn....mowed.
thing is, i realize i need to leave here fast, but i don't want to move into another bad situation because i was rushed. if i have to get roommates, i want to know them first. if i am to get an apartment, i want it to be with a flexible lease, affordable, and near my work. i'd prefer to be able to keep my current jobs, at least until things are a bit more settled.
so if any of you have advice, or know of people in need of roomates or a cheap apartment near where i live, please let me know. i could use all the help i could get right now.
didn't get her a gift because she kicked me out over something so rediculus and stupid (i refused to put another bill in my name that i didn't believe i could pay....a cell phone for my 13 yr old brother...). i spent my days worrying over what kind of lease i could afford and where i'd find a month-to-month payment situ...worrying over where i would be staying until i found my apartment...
so then i thought about what my brother andrew does when he's kicked out...and i did as he does, and just came back home and ignored it.
she would try to pick a fight with me, and i'd walk out or refuse to discuss it.
i mean....she isn't a rational woman. i cannot reason with her. everything runs on her emotions...there's no logic involved. and you cannot tell someone what they're feeling is wrong (however inappropiate), you can only point out how what they're feeling does not firt with the situation, and hope they can adjust themselves with the new information. i try. i fail.
i can't continue avoiding her forever, i know this. and i know there's a good possibility i'll come home to find all my belongings on the front lawn....mowed.
thing is, i realize i need to leave here fast, but i don't want to move into another bad situation because i was rushed. if i have to get roommates, i want to know them first. if i am to get an apartment, i want it to be with a flexible lease, affordable, and near my work. i'd prefer to be able to keep my current jobs, at least until things are a bit more settled.
so if any of you have advice, or know of people in need of roomates or a cheap apartment near where i live, please let me know. i could use all the help i could get right now.