Nov 17, 2005 14:47
The walk back to Lorne's place didn't take too long but the wait on the front stoop of the buildin' took longer. I was kinda feelin' that I should stay in LA, help out Angel and Wes. Wes was blind and he was goin' to need help and plus, well, Angel. I wanted so bad to turn my back on him and leave this city behind but somethin' in me had to stay. Guess I still had a mission and it was long from over but I couldn't bring myself to go inside and tell Lorne all of this. We'd been gettin' along for awhile now, well, the last couple of weeks anyway, seein' as I was stayin' with him ever since everyone left Wolfram and Hart. Knew what was goin' on at the hotel, well, thought I was all knowin'. Probably alot of guilt and what not and that just added onto my guilt. The things I'd done in the past year, plus the fact that Faith died cause of Angel and Cordy? Damn. Never thought she'd do somethin' like that.
It would also be easy just to go back to my boys and join the gang but that would be a disappointment. Not sure to anyone else, but to myself. I told them to get out, told them to go and do somethin' with their lives besides huntin' down vampires. That was Angel's job. He hasn't been doin' that alot, I guess fightin' down Senior Partners got in the way of that. Along the way we all lost what we were really fightin' for until it was too late and we all had to redeem ourselves.
With a sigh, I looked up at the buildin' before walkin' in and I took the elevator up to his apartment. Time to tell Lorne that I wasn't feelin' the whole Las Vegas thing. Pushin' the door open, I noticed how quiet it was inside. No cheesy music, no laughin', no dancin', the place was mad dark and I looked around as I reached over and turned on the light. Down on the table was a note and I picked it up, unfoldin' the paper.
Listen up Bucko,
I went ahead and left, something told me you weren't going to come with me to the big city with the bright and shiny lights and that's all right with me. You stay here with Angel but, I have to say, don't stay in the apartment too long cause the vicious men in the terribly expensive suits will be coming to take everything.
Cheers!
Lorne
The P and S of this is ... well, you know.
Well, that was easy, but still, he could've stayed to say goodbye. Foldin' up the note, I pushed it in my pocket and took a look around. Walkin' over to my corner of the room, I picked up some clothes and then headed to the door. That's all I had left anyway, just clothes. Guess that's all I ever had. Now I had to go back to the hotel and tell Angel I was kickin' it with them for a few. Maybe longer. I wouldn't mind that.