everything in its right place.....
so i went up north today and it couldn't have been a more perfect visit. it felt right this time and i felt like a part of the living, breathing organism that is life up there. there was no guilt when i left this time because i feel like this time that i am finally using to become whole and healthy is going to benefit everyone involved someday. that day is going to come because i am going to do everything i can to make it so.
on the other hand, it is difficult for someone like me to deal with life being fine and life being calm and "normal". it is like i get antsy waiting for the shit to hit the fan. being in crisis-mode becomes a way of life. must learn to sit back and breath instead of waiting for the other shoe to drop. boring IS okay, right?
on the other hand, it is difficult for someone like me to deal with life being fine and life being calm and "normal". it is like i get antsy waiting for the shit to hit the fan. being in crisis-mode becomes a way of life. must learn to sit back and breath instead of waiting for the other shoe to drop. boring IS okay, right?