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I appreciate that people want to create an open arts community by posting their short stories for free on the internet, but is there a reason that literally every single one has to be poorly-written and socially awkward science fiction?
I guess this bothers me because I've been pondering my future a lot recently, and with very little in the way of results. The good grade on my thesis clearly didn't reflect the jury's opinion of it; as it turns out, I'm a pretty shitty literary critic. All my best pieces that could have been assembled into a workable portfolio for getting into art school were, through an irritating series of events, abandoned to a trash bin in New York. And at my age, I can't even remotely imagine starting the whole higher education process again in a subject more specific and conducive to a career. Am I doomed to middle-management? I have no workable skills to create art and zero understanding of anything scientific. Last time I checked, speaking okay French wasn't a valuable asset.
All I can do for the moment, I suppose, is continue bartending to pay the rent and write another shitty thesis next year that the snotty French will also hate. I'm enjoying myself, so what if I leave no legacy? This is what I tell myself to get to sleep at night.
I guess this bothers me because I've been pondering my future a lot recently, and with very little in the way of results. The good grade on my thesis clearly didn't reflect the jury's opinion of it; as it turns out, I'm a pretty shitty literary critic. All my best pieces that could have been assembled into a workable portfolio for getting into art school were, through an irritating series of events, abandoned to a trash bin in New York. And at my age, I can't even remotely imagine starting the whole higher education process again in a subject more specific and conducive to a career. Am I doomed to middle-management? I have no workable skills to create art and zero understanding of anything scientific. Last time I checked, speaking okay French wasn't a valuable asset.
All I can do for the moment, I suppose, is continue bartending to pay the rent and write another shitty thesis next year that the snotty French will also hate. I'm enjoying myself, so what if I leave no legacy? This is what I tell myself to get to sleep at night.