a meaningful evening

[hellojuly]

i had an adam night tonight. i needed it. i hadn't seen him in practically a month. i needed adam time. just someone to sit down and talk to and not have to apologize for the fact that i hadn't seen them in a while, or deal with any of that bullshit. i appreciate those people who are able to be friends with someone no matter how long its been since you've talked, or seen each other, or whatever. maybe that is why most of my friends are men now. they don't care about all that crap. when they see you, they will be happy about it, and when they don't, they won't bitch. i wish more people were like that.

im a few beers in and have officially forgotten what i started writing this entry for.

well just to comment. my tutorial is going amazingly well. i have finished my proposal and will be having my first board meeting in a week. to me that is like gold right now. i will be finished by january and be able to live life accordingly and plan for the future.

i have been thinking more and more about americorps. i know i can't go into the peace corps. if i didn't have any attatchments here i could totally just go and do it. i don't know maybe if there was someone who would go with me, that would be enough.

who knows.

i don't know why im even writing this. how can i expect there to be any other knowledge in my head right now at all.

fuck it.

good night.