the outlook issue...
i suppose when one has nothing to do, he should journal... so here goes...
two years ago, uncle garry gave four of us one-year Bibles, when we all brought up how we've been struggling with our spiritual lives... out of his own pocket, he decided to invest in us... it's taken me this year to finally get into it, and it's been a great blessing... lately, he told us to journal whenever we read, but i find it hard to sit down in the morning and reflect, the way i should be doing... however, this week so far, is proof of the positive effect my devotional's had on me...
i don't know what it was, but last week was somewhat crappy in my eyes... and i wanted to change that... and my reading on monday definitely gave me motivation to strive for a better week...
psalms 42 inspired me... i'm just gonna write it out...
"As the deer longs for streams of water, so I long for you, O God.
I thirst for God, the living God. When can I go and stand before him?
Day and night I have only tears for food, while my enemies continually taunt me, saying "Where is this God of yours?"
My heart is breaking as I remember how it used to be:
I walked among the crowds of worshipers, leading a great procession to the house of God,
singing for joy and giving thanks amid the sound of a great celebration.
Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again--my Savior and my God!
Now I am deeply discouraged, but I will remember you...
I hear the tumult of the raging seas as your waves and surging tides sweep over me.
But each day the Lord pours his unfailing love upon me,
and through each night I sing his songs,
praying to God who gives me life.
'O God my rock,' I cry, 'Why have you forgotten me?
Why must I wander around in grief, oppressed by my enemies?'
Their taunts break my bones. They scoff, 'Where is this God of yours?'
Why am i discouraged? Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again--my Savior and my God!"
i read that passage over and over... God speaks in ironic ways, sometimes smacking you in the face with what He wants you to hear...
a good passage has given me a good outlook for this week... time to focus on the things that have truly made me happy... hearing others' laughter and seeing smiles on their faces, transcribing a new song for BAQ, watching friends' games or debates, accompanying friends on the piano, cracking jokes at others' expense, seeing snow fall from the sky...
it's definitely an outlook issue... this week could've been potentially negative or stressful, with my student teaching application due so soon, my TB test showing positive, my lessons being less than adequate, coming from frustrating classes, spending less time with people in general...
but i can still be thankful for life, b/c it's great...
despite my low points, i'm so thankful for life... for where i am on this journey... for all the experiences and people that strengthen or test me... i'm thankful for it all...
two years ago, uncle garry gave four of us one-year Bibles, when we all brought up how we've been struggling with our spiritual lives... out of his own pocket, he decided to invest in us... it's taken me this year to finally get into it, and it's been a great blessing... lately, he told us to journal whenever we read, but i find it hard to sit down in the morning and reflect, the way i should be doing... however, this week so far, is proof of the positive effect my devotional's had on me...
i don't know what it was, but last week was somewhat crappy in my eyes... and i wanted to change that... and my reading on monday definitely gave me motivation to strive for a better week...
psalms 42 inspired me... i'm just gonna write it out...
"As the deer longs for streams of water, so I long for you, O God.
I thirst for God, the living God. When can I go and stand before him?
Day and night I have only tears for food, while my enemies continually taunt me, saying "Where is this God of yours?"
My heart is breaking as I remember how it used to be:
I walked among the crowds of worshipers, leading a great procession to the house of God,
singing for joy and giving thanks amid the sound of a great celebration.
Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again--my Savior and my God!
Now I am deeply discouraged, but I will remember you...
I hear the tumult of the raging seas as your waves and surging tides sweep over me.
But each day the Lord pours his unfailing love upon me,
and through each night I sing his songs,
praying to God who gives me life.
'O God my rock,' I cry, 'Why have you forgotten me?
Why must I wander around in grief, oppressed by my enemies?'
Their taunts break my bones. They scoff, 'Where is this God of yours?'
Why am i discouraged? Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again--my Savior and my God!"
i read that passage over and over... God speaks in ironic ways, sometimes smacking you in the face with what He wants you to hear...
a good passage has given me a good outlook for this week... time to focus on the things that have truly made me happy... hearing others' laughter and seeing smiles on their faces, transcribing a new song for BAQ, watching friends' games or debates, accompanying friends on the piano, cracking jokes at others' expense, seeing snow fall from the sky...
it's definitely an outlook issue... this week could've been potentially negative or stressful, with my student teaching application due so soon, my TB test showing positive, my lessons being less than adequate, coming from frustrating classes, spending less time with people in general...
but i can still be thankful for life, b/c it's great...
despite my low points, i'm so thankful for life... for where i am on this journey... for all the experiences and people that strengthen or test me... i'm thankful for it all...