Change Solidifies Our Existence
Welp, another dumbass title, and yet another emotional charged update.
I'm jus' kinda chillin' here, thinkin' about some stuff, and I've gotten to the point where I think, it's happening. I'm changing for the betterment of myself and all around me, in the past week I haven't really lied to anyone except teacher's about some stuff, or maybe about money I spent to my mom. But to my friends and those that truly matter to my existence, I haven't even exaggerated to anyone, I feel good about myself for once in a while. I feel a sense of completion, 3 of the people who hated me for who I was, now are friends again. I've gotten to the point where there's more than one of me, it seems like every month I'm different, but I know who I need to be, and who I want to be. I want to be what I was, caring, loving, honest, and loyal, and I will do all in my power and beyond to be what I was. I'm intensely sorry to those I've hurt, especially the 2 most important people, I still love you both. I have lost trust from both of you, trust that I never deserved, but even if you two keep me out of your life, I will fight to earn the truth of those in my future. I love all those in my life, and I appreciate them all. The ones that hate me, love me, push me down, help me up, all of you, I appreciate you all, because no matter what anyone does for or to me, it's brought me to this point where I've seen what I was, and now I can see what I will be again. I'm gonna go take a piss now then see about skating tonight. Then maybe later, I'll IM Shelly, and see how much she truly hates me. I'm out niccaz.
Saluté.
I'm jus' kinda chillin' here, thinkin' about some stuff, and I've gotten to the point where I think, it's happening. I'm changing for the betterment of myself and all around me, in the past week I haven't really lied to anyone except teacher's about some stuff, or maybe about money I spent to my mom. But to my friends and those that truly matter to my existence, I haven't even exaggerated to anyone, I feel good about myself for once in a while. I feel a sense of completion, 3 of the people who hated me for who I was, now are friends again. I've gotten to the point where there's more than one of me, it seems like every month I'm different, but I know who I need to be, and who I want to be. I want to be what I was, caring, loving, honest, and loyal, and I will do all in my power and beyond to be what I was. I'm intensely sorry to those I've hurt, especially the 2 most important people, I still love you both. I have lost trust from both of you, trust that I never deserved, but even if you two keep me out of your life, I will fight to earn the truth of those in my future. I love all those in my life, and I appreciate them all. The ones that hate me, love me, push me down, help me up, all of you, I appreciate you all, because no matter what anyone does for or to me, it's brought me to this point where I've seen what I was, and now I can see what I will be again. I'm gonna go take a piss now then see about skating tonight. Then maybe later, I'll IM Shelly, and see how much she truly hates me. I'm out niccaz.
Saluté.