I'm so sorry..
G00th: If I could talk to Shelly, if I had some way of getting this message to her, I'd tell her I made so many mistakes, I told so many lies, the only reasons behind it were the ignorance that I wanted to be perfect for her, I wanted to be perfect to her, so that she would love me, and it turned out, all my bullshit immature anctics backfired and made me lose what I held dearest.. but she wont talk to me now, and I've ruined one of the greatest things I ever had. And she hates me, rightfully so I guess..
BLO0DY TAMP0NS: ummmmmmm
BLO0DY TAMP0NS: k
G00th: Christina, I dunno what I did to ruin that, other then get scared.. but that's behind me too.
G00th: I just have to accept I'm losing everything, and move on.
BLO0DY TAMP0NS: why dont you tell them this and not me
G00th: I can't, neither would listen or care.
G00th: Plus, it's prolly easier if they hate me, then put them through this.
G00th: It's a favor to them, as my sign of loving them, I'll just disappear from their lives and spare them from the horrible person that I am.
BLO0DY TAMP0NS: hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Am I right or wrong? I've made so many mistakes with so many people.. I'm not who I was so long ago, and I honestly can't even laugh anymore without hating my smile, everything about who I am disgusts me anymore, if all of you were to turn on me today, I honestly doubt I'd blame any of you, I'm so sorry to every single last one of you whom I've ever, EVER hurt.. I mean with whatever purity I have left in my darkened heart, that I cannot do enough to express my apolgies to you all.. I feel like I have little to nothing at all anymore.. and I feel like I can't handle it anymore, I've lost the love of my friend, Shelly, and my ex, Christina. I just wish I could be who I used to for them.. to make them smile, make them laugh, make them cry, make them go home content with their life.. I want to be what I was for everyone.. but what I am now is hatred, loathing, envy, disgust, dishonesty.. I am the image of the fallen, and for any of you to spit whatever feelings you once had upon me would be completely understood.. Goodbye to those who I do the favor of ridding myself from your lives, and sorry to those who continue to suffer because of me.
BLO0DY TAMP0NS: ummmmmmm
BLO0DY TAMP0NS: k
G00th: Christina, I dunno what I did to ruin that, other then get scared.. but that's behind me too.
G00th: I just have to accept I'm losing everything, and move on.
BLO0DY TAMP0NS: why dont you tell them this and not me
G00th: I can't, neither would listen or care.
G00th: Plus, it's prolly easier if they hate me, then put them through this.
G00th: It's a favor to them, as my sign of loving them, I'll just disappear from their lives and spare them from the horrible person that I am.
BLO0DY TAMP0NS: hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Am I right or wrong? I've made so many mistakes with so many people.. I'm not who I was so long ago, and I honestly can't even laugh anymore without hating my smile, everything about who I am disgusts me anymore, if all of you were to turn on me today, I honestly doubt I'd blame any of you, I'm so sorry to every single last one of you whom I've ever, EVER hurt.. I mean with whatever purity I have left in my darkened heart, that I cannot do enough to express my apolgies to you all.. I feel like I have little to nothing at all anymore.. and I feel like I can't handle it anymore, I've lost the love of my friend, Shelly, and my ex, Christina. I just wish I could be who I used to for them.. to make them smile, make them laugh, make them cry, make them go home content with their life.. I want to be what I was for everyone.. but what I am now is hatred, loathing, envy, disgust, dishonesty.. I am the image of the fallen, and for any of you to spit whatever feelings you once had upon me would be completely understood.. Goodbye to those who I do the favor of ridding myself from your lives, and sorry to those who continue to suffer because of me.