To Nanny
I've taken up a nanny job to help fund some future plans or my senior thesis. Its been tough for sure. Babies are so demanding of your attention and time. Taking care of one has made me terrified of being a mother. I only need to do this once a week. I can't imagine for the rest of my life. Yes babies get older and become kids, but kids are tough too. I took care of a few when I was in Shanghai also demanding of time and attention. It's cool that you can be so influential to such a tiny person, but I don't want that responsibility. I think I'm too much of a child at heart at this point for me to really allow myself to take care of something I have no control of. No can't do it I'm still a child mentally I think. I mean I guess I'm saying I'm not ready to grow up. i want to be a toys r us kid.