2-3months
so we saw a different doctor today to discuss my grandma's stats. she has he says about 2-3 months. It was sort of what i expected. I guess I was hoping for 2 years but i knew it probably wouldn't happen. But honestly i don't understand why the doctor felt it was appropriate to give a percentage to families when they don't have any idea what it means percentages at this point mean absolutely nothing. i don't know. I'm not even sure how i feel am I angry? sad? i'm not sure. I was looking at my grandmother in the daylight this afternoon. I was rubbing her arms because she was itchy and when she scratches she hurts herself and gets scab spots. She was so yellow. when my dad told me i thought he was exaggerating but in natural light its just so terrifying. her jondus is just so bad. all her blood work came out great except for the liver function and it hurts so much to see her like that. Looking in her eyes, she seems so far away. I wanted to hug her to bring her back, but its really unnatural to do that out of nowhere in my family and I didn't want to scare her. I just sat there watching her drift further away. I felt so helpless and in a way conceded for not doing more. she is still breathing but i feel like i've already lost her. she's gone and shes just left her body here for us to look at