it's been a year
out of laziness, i'm just going to type up a bit from my paper journal entry tonight.
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anyway, this has been a year of wanting what i don't want. of not wanting what i want. of getting what i wanted and regretting it bitterly. of getting what i need and resisting it. a year of looking like a woman and acting like a 16-year-old. a year of pouting and dwelling and regressing and outgrowing and questioning and denying and realizing and accepting and remembering and forgetting and wanting to quit. a year with so many internal distractions, few external ones. what'll next year be?
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anyway, this has been a year of wanting what i don't want. of not wanting what i want. of getting what i wanted and regretting it bitterly. of getting what i need and resisting it. a year of looking like a woman and acting like a 16-year-old. a year of pouting and dwelling and regressing and outgrowing and questioning and denying and realizing and accepting and remembering and forgetting and wanting to quit. a year with so many internal distractions, few external ones. what'll next year be?