Going home
I have no desire whatsoever to go home, Usually by now I at least miss the cats to the point I am ready to go. I guess it will be like last time. I will see Toledo and be happy to be comming home. But that makes it a long ride. I am glad I will have my headphones. Hopefully I wont have to talk to anyone on the bus. I can just try to float on the music until I start to miss my kitties.
I guess it is just that I know what I am going home too. No car, my dad in a horrible mood. Chores. All the bullshit. My mother thinking that if something happened to them I wont be able to take care of myself. No new books to read. Just frustration and depression. No new Heroes. No pretty pictures of sendhil to make the day go by easier.
On a better note, I got to read cards on saturday night. It was awesome. I dont know what it is about my cards but even holding them in my hands makes me feel better. I helped a few people, but one disagreed. Doesnt matter though. If my cards said what hers did I would disagree to. I was on a nice high all night. Not a manic high, but actually feeling happy and back to normal.
I guess it is just that I know what I am going home too. No car, my dad in a horrible mood. Chores. All the bullshit. My mother thinking that if something happened to them I wont be able to take care of myself. No new books to read. Just frustration and depression. No new Heroes. No pretty pictures of sendhil to make the day go by easier.
On a better note, I got to read cards on saturday night. It was awesome. I dont know what it is about my cards but even holding them in my hands makes me feel better. I helped a few people, but one disagreed. Doesnt matter though. If my cards said what hers did I would disagree to. I was on a nice high all night. Not a manic high, but actually feeling happy and back to normal.