Depression and tarot cards
I am getting pretty depressed. I am having the usual symptoms before my period starts and all I can think of is riding the bus home with no pain meds. I have been exausted all day and am having stomach issues. I had a big nose bleed today and spent the next hour shaking like a leaf. I am a total wuss about nose bleeds. My mom said our car still wont start which means when I get home no internet access since I have to go to the library.
I am still looking forward to tomorrow though. People are coming over and I will be reading cards. Nothing could make me feel better really than doing that. I dont know what it is but after I read someones cards I feel so good. I guess because I feel like it is the only thing I do well. I am a pisces and I cannot do anything. I cant sing, paint, write. I write poetry but it sucks. Not that I dont enjoy it. But when I read somones cards I feel confident., I know I am helping someone. Getting the cards right and connecting them to that persons life. It doesnt matter if I know them or not.
I guess this is going to be one of those months where the depression gets bad. Or should I say worse. Having bi polar is so much fun. It is better than being manic. I still have trouble with that. I am just begining to recognize manic states. I realize I am having one and then freak out even more because I am having one. I prefer depression. I know how to deal with that.
I am still looking forward to tomorrow though. People are coming over and I will be reading cards. Nothing could make me feel better really than doing that. I dont know what it is but after I read someones cards I feel so good. I guess because I feel like it is the only thing I do well. I am a pisces and I cannot do anything. I cant sing, paint, write. I write poetry but it sucks. Not that I dont enjoy it. But when I read somones cards I feel confident., I know I am helping someone. Getting the cards right and connecting them to that persons life. It doesnt matter if I know them or not.
I guess this is going to be one of those months where the depression gets bad. Or should I say worse. Having bi polar is so much fun. It is better than being manic. I still have trouble with that. I am just begining to recognize manic states. I realize I am having one and then freak out even more because I am having one. I prefer depression. I know how to deal with that.