sad but unpreventable sercumstance.

Mar 13, 2009 10:20

I'm not looking for sympathy, I just wanted to vent.

A few days ago I was informed that my grandmother had a fall due to a strock. She cut her forhead badly. The hospital stiched her up and then ran the MRI. She has a blood clot in the brain and is unable to communicate. Being mostly unconsious and on her back had allowed fluid to build up in her lungs. Life expectency is short.

Last night they removed the breathing tube. She is now breathing on her own. Still no communication, though other bodily functions are slowing responding again. "She used the bathroom and gripped someones hand."

Due to my fathers work requirments, my mother needed assistance in our upbringing. My grandparents raised me. When grandpa past on I felt I had lost my real father. My grandmother will be leaving now and she is my secound mother.

Though I am very attached and yes, emotional, I don't feel as badly about this round. I'm hoping she will pass quickly and as comfortably as possible.

I know she had a full and active life right up to this point. I visited her in november based off a strang feeling I had. At that time she said good bye so I don't feel like I've lost my chance.

I'm not sure what to think or how to feel.
I'm a little numb.

I'm ok.
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