starbucks has strange effects on me
i was at starbucks the other morning before i went into work, and i saw a paitent of mine outside having a cup of coffee with a woman. they looked really happy, they were laughing and joking and being really flirty. this patient had been coming in a lot lately so i knew who he was- he's this really nice polish guy who has a hyperactive son (who looks just like him of course). i knew he was married and had only this one son, and i knew they lived in the area so they came in often, blah blah blah. what was weird was that when i saw him with this woman, i was devastated because i instantly assumed that the woman wasnt his wife; maybe it was someone else. like a mistress or something. i was sad to see this nice man have a woman on the side.
so i went inside without saying hello (he didnt see me anyway) and ordered my coffee, and as i waited for my drink, i started thinking, what if thats just his wife, and he's just a nice husband taking her out to coffee? the more i thought about it that way, and the more i looked at them through the window (voyuer) the more it made sense for this guy to just be with his wife.
i annoyed myself. why do i assume the worst in people? i dont think i do it that often (in fact, quite the opposite) but when i do it really bothers me. three things im really making an active attempt to change are being more honest with myself so i can be more honestand open with others, trying to see people for who they really are, and going on a walk at least three times a week.
so far, ive been doing better with all of the above, minus the starbucks slip. not great, but better than i was four months ago, definitely.
on a side note, it tears me up when i see my friends hurt and there's nothing i can do to help or fix it.
is that it? did i cover all the bases? um...
...yes. i think so.