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I really can't fucking believe some people sometimes.
Somehow they think they're doing the right thing, but by doing that they're doing the exact opposite of what you believe to be the right thing. And they're only doing it for you. And you explain. And they go ahead and do it anyway. If taking the high road is leaving me angry forever rather than just momentarily, I'd like to see what the low road is. Too bad I won't though. I'm flying from now on.
I just don't get it though, its like you have two options. Option one doesn't seem all that flash hot right now, but people mend, things change, and there's a chance it could be fucking fantastic. It might end up in shit but at least you know that it really really has when it happens. Option two ends up the exact same - except it just ends in shit because you made it, there is no might about it, it just is shit. But there is no hope and there most certainly is no forgiveness in this option. You're meant to take the option with hope right? The option where even if things don't work out you know you tried your hardest. The option where even if things go to shit there's still forgiveness and the chance to move forward. The option where you don't give up just because you think you're right because you never ever know what will really happen unless you do it.
Well its done. You did it. You completely broke it and it completely shattered. At least the other way I could still respect you as a person. This way I can't. There will never be anything.
Fuck you. I should have listened to everyone, that you couldn't have changed, that your conviction wasn't real. That nothing about you is real. You're a big fucking fake no matter how well you want to think of yourself. How much you think what you do is right. You have nothing because you DESERVE nothing. Your disdain and distrust for others is what did it, not any of your other actions. PEOPLE CAN FUCKING SEE THAT YOU KNOW - DO YOU THINK THEY LIKED TO BE LOOKED DOWN UPON? You have no right to fucking do it. Your ivory tower has no foundation. You are a horrible person, you are heading nowhere, you have no love, you werent even born into a high station in life, nor have you worked your way up to one. Why do you still look down on others? Your egotism is unbounded, you need to eat a fuckload of humble pie. I tried to feed you some but you were afraid of getting fat. While on that topic, your vanity is also unjustified. There is nothing to back those claims up. Just another face in the crowd, even if the haircut could feed a family of four for a week.
Well done. You might think you saved me from a lot of heartache and what not, and maybe you have. But I thank you not for it. And the price you pay for tricking yourself into doing something good is the losing the one thing you may possibly really wanted in life, the chance to never know, the knowledge that even if you did you have lost it forever anyway so theres no point in even bothering to figure it out, and you have lost all respect I ever had for you. I truly believe you are a disgusting stain of a human being, that you are scum. That you will never make good of anything. Good comes from good, not dirt.
I try to think the best of everyone, so its pretty hard to make me really really hate someone and think the worst of them. Congratulations. You join a very elite crowd, populated by cheats, murderers and peadophiles.
I hope you continue floating about in Purgatory forever, you deserve neither certainties of heaven nor hell - even though you qualify for the last layer of hell having betrayed everyone in your life at one point or another. The greatest sin of all.
Somehow they think they're doing the right thing, but by doing that they're doing the exact opposite of what you believe to be the right thing. And they're only doing it for you. And you explain. And they go ahead and do it anyway. If taking the high road is leaving me angry forever rather than just momentarily, I'd like to see what the low road is. Too bad I won't though. I'm flying from now on.
I just don't get it though, its like you have two options. Option one doesn't seem all that flash hot right now, but people mend, things change, and there's a chance it could be fucking fantastic. It might end up in shit but at least you know that it really really has when it happens. Option two ends up the exact same - except it just ends in shit because you made it, there is no might about it, it just is shit. But there is no hope and there most certainly is no forgiveness in this option. You're meant to take the option with hope right? The option where even if things don't work out you know you tried your hardest. The option where even if things go to shit there's still forgiveness and the chance to move forward. The option where you don't give up just because you think you're right because you never ever know what will really happen unless you do it.
Well its done. You did it. You completely broke it and it completely shattered. At least the other way I could still respect you as a person. This way I can't. There will never be anything.
Fuck you. I should have listened to everyone, that you couldn't have changed, that your conviction wasn't real. That nothing about you is real. You're a big fucking fake no matter how well you want to think of yourself. How much you think what you do is right. You have nothing because you DESERVE nothing. Your disdain and distrust for others is what did it, not any of your other actions. PEOPLE CAN FUCKING SEE THAT YOU KNOW - DO YOU THINK THEY LIKED TO BE LOOKED DOWN UPON? You have no right to fucking do it. Your ivory tower has no foundation. You are a horrible person, you are heading nowhere, you have no love, you werent even born into a high station in life, nor have you worked your way up to one. Why do you still look down on others? Your egotism is unbounded, you need to eat a fuckload of humble pie. I tried to feed you some but you were afraid of getting fat. While on that topic, your vanity is also unjustified. There is nothing to back those claims up. Just another face in the crowd, even if the haircut could feed a family of four for a week.
Well done. You might think you saved me from a lot of heartache and what not, and maybe you have. But I thank you not for it. And the price you pay for tricking yourself into doing something good is the losing the one thing you may possibly really wanted in life, the chance to never know, the knowledge that even if you did you have lost it forever anyway so theres no point in even bothering to figure it out, and you have lost all respect I ever had for you. I truly believe you are a disgusting stain of a human being, that you are scum. That you will never make good of anything. Good comes from good, not dirt.
I try to think the best of everyone, so its pretty hard to make me really really hate someone and think the worst of them. Congratulations. You join a very elite crowd, populated by cheats, murderers and peadophiles.
I hope you continue floating about in Purgatory forever, you deserve neither certainties of heaven nor hell - even though you qualify for the last layer of hell having betrayed everyone in your life at one point or another. The greatest sin of all.