Poem I wrote
There's this boy who tears me up inside
I told myseld I was over him
But they were lies,
to convince myself that he wasn't worth it
And I thought I hated him for everything he did
But dare I even say it, I might have loved him.
They say its better to have loved than to not have loved at all,
I beg to differ.
Every night as I lie awake before falling deep into slumber
I feel this pain and throbbing inside
I thought it was my heart beating
But a beating heart doesn't make you cry.
I loved him through all his defects
Through all the hurtful things he said to me.
I was there when she wasn't.
So why aren't I the one he looks at adoringly?
Why aren't I the one he talks to every night?
I'm just the friend he never considered
The girl he watched being pushed aside and didn't do a thing.
Just the friend whose feelings will never be returned by him
I'm just the girl no one looks at
And the same one who'll have all these feelings bottled up inside.
I never realized how much it hurts...
Maybe thats why I was afraid to actually say it,
It would make it much more real.