Here's my 2nd entry, which is a continuation of the first. The new sections will be in a different colour to make it easier to follow.
VOL 2. The meaning of kindness
September 2003
Women would usually express their ideal lover as "Someone who loves me the most". Because it simply seems like a (selfish) demand, there were times when I thought "What the hell, stop bullshitting me, what’s with such a comment!". At other times, I’ve also thought that it’s surprisingly honest.
Actually, isn’t it something everyone has thought of before? It’s the same for the men too, just that men don’t say it out loud. It’s hard if it’s not reciprocated, and for us human beings, everyone wants to be loved by the person they like...
After falling in love with someone, you’d think “I want to tell him/her my feelings, but how should I go about doing that?” It all begins from your actions.
Such feelings of appreciation or cherish for the other party might perhaps even lead to kindness. Well, the exact form (of kindness) will depend on each individual. How giving (in terms of love) someone is depends on his personality, and there are also people who are the kind who receive or accept (love), and all these can be established from the start. Even simply based on the type of relationship itself, different kinds of kindness exist don’t they? If you firmly want a mutual relationship, even something strict can turn into kindness.
That’s why I think there’s nobody who’s absolutely truly kind. Because we’re not God.
I hope I'm not butchering his words by my amateur translation but I really like this entry's topic of kindness, mainly in the context of a relationship. Kimura is very persceptive and can express nuances well. There are indeed many types of "kindness" which will differ depending on the person you are, the person you're with, or even what your motivations are. His insights are always refreshing to read and his sensitivity to the fact that things are always complex, and never black or white, is one of the things I really admire about him.
Also, I have to admit that I'm one of those whose ideal lover is "Someone who loves me the most", as selfish (or honest) as that sounds.
Have a good weekend everyone ^^ It's a long weekend here because of Hari Raya Haji, so yay to an extra rest day!
Oh and if anyone wants to correct any part of my translation, please feel free to do so!!! I can provide you the original entry in Japanese =)