Life is going great, but...
...what's the confusion?
I have started going to university as most of you know, which I am enjoying it to the fullest! I find new great friends, a great collective that will meet this Tuesday together....I am very excited every day that is coming and that means another step to a full and happy life!
My and sister's room is being remade a little to add some nice green and orange colors (so i can spread it with my Charmander and Snivy line collection <3) to the old dark brown socialist furniture there is. Since my sister has moved to Spain, is living there and has a great job now, I do not think she will move back here...so I can now call the children's room ALL MINE and can do whatever I want with it! <3333
t took me some time to clean up everything, organize things and remove things that I didn't need, but it was fun! I enjoy cleaning a lot to be quite honest, even though I sneeze from the dust going all over the floor. Also since my grandma from my mom's side has moved to our apartment (she has Allsheimer disease, so she can't take care of herself anymore), I could just claim the small TV into my room and now can play my Wii as much as I want! Thoguh I seriously can't wait to make a collection update of my Pokeymanz! <333
From my happy side, that is probably everything. Though one thing that I still am thinking of...
This night, I have been dreaming a bad dream. Very bad dream to be honest. Imagine if you dream of attending a funeral of a really loved one from your family. It was actually the death of my grandma from my dad's side. My grandma is one of the greatest people I know personally and her family and especially her grandchildren, including me, are the most important thing to her. That dream felt so very suddenly happening things. The funeral was a little...different. We were around 500 people or so in a large golden cathedral, all being sad, but nobody dressed in black. There have been moments where we were laughing. I remember it was my mom who wanted to play on the violine to play a song for my grandma, but she sucked and evrybody was laughing at her, including herself. And when she sang with another relative (which I do not remember), they were singing horribly and everybody was laughing at them, including themselves, how horribly they sang themselves. It was humourous to everybody! When we came from the cathedral (and for some odd reason, we didn't actually bring grandma into her grave), most of us being sad and going, I talk to my grandpa, seeing how sad he is that his beloved wife is dead. Then we saw something else. A polar bear on the road. Lovely walking to us and being friendly.
After this I have woken up and I had tears in my eyes. And I cried for a minute or two, which made me worry about grandma. She is actually a VERY active person and I thought there is no way something would happen to her (I think she is so healthy and active that she could live for another 10 years or so). I went to my mom, cried again and told her only that it was grandma's funeral and people attending it. My mom calmed me down, because dreams HARDLY come true, especially immediately. She also told me, if it's about dreams, it's always something absolute different that would be happening and that dreams means something else than what it looks like.
We have both lookedat what the dream meant. One part that I looked up was:
Funeral procession:
- If it was a poor one: Misery awaits you.
- If it was a great and glorious one: You will be rich and happy. (which as you notice, is this one)
Bear:
- Be him: Your strength and determination'll break every resistance.
- To eat his meat: Somebody from your family will marry soon.
- Polar Bear: You will get lots of sympathy and love. (Obviously is this one)
- Hunt him: You're in danger.
- Dancing: You will pay your debts soon.
- Kill him: You will overrun your enemy.
So then, my mom told me there is nothing to worry about. It made and makes me still relieved. She even told me that last night grandpa called that they are having fun at a party that they attended.
So overall, the dream makes me happy at what it partly means (yes, I do believe in these things), but the death of my beloved grandma was horrifying. After writing this entry and thinking through it again, I just feel happy and relieved. It shows me that great things will be happening and my grandma is doing great anyways. Sometimes I feel the fifty fifty way, but otherwise....I will be positive about this.
Because the meaning of life means happiness.
Though I would share this. I wonder if anybody of you had a negative dream like this and in the end it meant something great for you? :)
I have started going to university as most of you know, which I am enjoying it to the fullest! I find new great friends, a great collective that will meet this Tuesday together....I am very excited every day that is coming and that means another step to a full and happy life!
My and sister's room is being remade a little to add some nice green and orange colors (so i can spread it with my Charmander and Snivy line collection <3) to the old dark brown socialist furniture there is. Since my sister has moved to Spain, is living there and has a great job now, I do not think she will move back here...so I can now call the children's room ALL MINE and can do whatever I want with it! <3333
t took me some time to clean up everything, organize things and remove things that I didn't need, but it was fun! I enjoy cleaning a lot to be quite honest, even though I sneeze from the dust going all over the floor. Also since my grandma from my mom's side has moved to our apartment (she has Allsheimer disease, so she can't take care of herself anymore), I could just claim the small TV into my room and now can play my Wii as much as I want! Thoguh I seriously can't wait to make a collection update of my Pokeymanz! <333
From my happy side, that is probably everything. Though one thing that I still am thinking of...
This night, I have been dreaming a bad dream. Very bad dream to be honest. Imagine if you dream of attending a funeral of a really loved one from your family. It was actually the death of my grandma from my dad's side. My grandma is one of the greatest people I know personally and her family and especially her grandchildren, including me, are the most important thing to her. That dream felt so very suddenly happening things. The funeral was a little...different. We were around 500 people or so in a large golden cathedral, all being sad, but nobody dressed in black. There have been moments where we were laughing. I remember it was my mom who wanted to play on the violine to play a song for my grandma, but she sucked and evrybody was laughing at her, including herself. And when she sang with another relative (which I do not remember), they were singing horribly and everybody was laughing at them, including themselves, how horribly they sang themselves. It was humourous to everybody! When we came from the cathedral (and for some odd reason, we didn't actually bring grandma into her grave), most of us being sad and going, I talk to my grandpa, seeing how sad he is that his beloved wife is dead. Then we saw something else. A polar bear on the road. Lovely walking to us and being friendly.
After this I have woken up and I had tears in my eyes. And I cried for a minute or two, which made me worry about grandma. She is actually a VERY active person and I thought there is no way something would happen to her (I think she is so healthy and active that she could live for another 10 years or so). I went to my mom, cried again and told her only that it was grandma's funeral and people attending it. My mom calmed me down, because dreams HARDLY come true, especially immediately. She also told me, if it's about dreams, it's always something absolute different that would be happening and that dreams means something else than what it looks like.
We have both lookedat what the dream meant. One part that I looked up was:
Funeral procession:
- If it was a poor one: Misery awaits you.
- If it was a great and glorious one: You will be rich and happy. (which as you notice, is this one)
Bear:
- Be him: Your strength and determination'll break every resistance.
- To eat his meat: Somebody from your family will marry soon.
- Polar Bear: You will get lots of sympathy and love. (Obviously is this one)
- Hunt him: You're in danger.
- Dancing: You will pay your debts soon.
- Kill him: You will overrun your enemy.
So then, my mom told me there is nothing to worry about. It made and makes me still relieved. She even told me that last night grandpa called that they are having fun at a party that they attended.
So overall, the dream makes me happy at what it partly means (yes, I do believe in these things), but the death of my beloved grandma was horrifying. After writing this entry and thinking through it again, I just feel happy and relieved. It shows me that great things will be happening and my grandma is doing great anyways. Sometimes I feel the fifty fifty way, but otherwise....I will be positive about this.
Because the meaning of life means happiness.
Though I would share this. I wonder if anybody of you had a negative dream like this and in the end it meant something great for you? :)