we were both blind
We were all blind, it wasn't just u, Even i didn't see through him. I was on the outside looking in, not caught up in the emotion and yet i did not see it coming. I thought u had finally found someone good, i was so happy for u. Yet he ended up being the same as the last, maybe even worst. woun't he hate it if he reads this. yes i am comparing him
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We were blind, we thought he was the perfect friend...I thought he was the perfect guy, everything I wanted, everything I needed...and I let myself feel for him things that should never have been felt, I just couldn't help it and I can't change it now, nor would I. I'm in no way excusing his reaction and his behavior, but he's not like the last. The last purposely hurt me because he knew it would get him what he wanted. Michael didn't mean to hurt me but he did, then he refused to see it. That is why he is worse than the last. Because I was expecting the last to hurt me, but I never expected it from my Freshman...my Freshman...Wow it hurts to realize I can't say that anymore. After all that has been said and done in the last few days, it's probably best that I say goodbye to someone who means the world to me...I obviously didn't mean nearly as much to him. Certain things...you know what I mean leah...should never have been said, if he really didn't care...certain things led me to believe I meant something to him...something real. Guess I really am stupid to believe that someone cared about me. It's okay though because now I really do have nothing left to give so I won't get hurt again...cuz I'll never open myself up to anyone again. The saddest part is, if he ever realizes he was wrong too and makes an effort to reach out to me, I'll accept him back into my life. I won't have to accept him back into my heart because he'll always be there.
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