Yet another dream….
I find myself at a birthday party… Many people are milling around and bonnie walks out of the crowd… I look at her nervously and she smiles and asks how I have been doing… We talk for hours smiling and laughing… then I wake up…. I am so sick of the dreams… in everyone there is an answer or a solution… In reality there is not… she feels that I have wronged her in some horrible way, so that I am not worth speaking to anymore… I don’t get it… I am sure if I tried that I could mount a list of wrongs as well, but I really don’t see the point… Friends forgive each other and look for the reasons to like each other not to fight… I am sure I could find things that I could dredge up about each of my long term friends that I didn’t like or things that we disagreed about…. I mean, hell if Ferderig and I can still call each other friends then we are a true testament to the fact that friendship can survive anything…. I just don’t get it… But I look back through all the people I have known and many of them were the same way… they walked away from friends that disagreed with them or had different opinions or knew them to well… they were always afraid of that they would look somehow tainted in that other persons eyes…. I just don’t get it…