Death...
My Grandfather died this afternoon…. I don’t really know how I feel about that… numb I guess… worried about my father… numb… so much has happened this passed year… so much that could have been avoided… and yet so many things that were going to happen no matter what anyone did… I haven’t been allowed to talk to the girls for a month now… my heart hurts…. I really wish that the punishment could end… with some many things going wrong in the world why do we have to create more…We would stay with my grandfather when we drove up to Michigan… he would always smile at all of the kids… he never questioned who they belonged to or where they came from… he would just smile and hug them… I contacted Bonnie to let her know about his passing… there was no response… it looks like the girls will not be allowed to go to the funeral… I miss my grandfather’s smile… I miss his laugh… I miss the girls… I miss their presence… to much grief lately….to much …..