Night number 11 and it seems to be lasting forever!
I am sitting here after probably one of the most boring days of my life in a very long time! and I'm crying!!!
I am crying because I wish I was in Dustin's bed curled up next to him watching weeds or even just watching him play video games. I don't know whats wrong with me! One minute I am all this was the right thing to do the next minute I just want to call him or run to his house. Yes RUN! I hate to run but its what I am thinking....
This is what I almost want to say to Dustin:
Look I do miss you and think about you and wish that we were together but nothings feels like its changed. I need action.. I need it to feel like we have done something to fix the issues we have. I hear you say you want me to come back and that you miss me like crazy but have you thought about the things that I said I needed? Are you willing to do anything to get me back or is sitting at home being sad your only way of telling me you need me in your life? Can you be a man of action? Can you tell me what you really really want for your life? Can you show me who you are? And do you want to really know me, inside and out?
Is what we had all we'll ever have?
I shouldn't say these things to him tho right... He should take action on his own. It should be in his heart right?
Or Will someday that be all I ever really needed?
I am crying because I wish I was in Dustin's bed curled up next to him watching weeds or even just watching him play video games. I don't know whats wrong with me! One minute I am all this was the right thing to do the next minute I just want to call him or run to his house. Yes RUN! I hate to run but its what I am thinking....
This is what I almost want to say to Dustin:
Look I do miss you and think about you and wish that we were together but nothings feels like its changed. I need action.. I need it to feel like we have done something to fix the issues we have. I hear you say you want me to come back and that you miss me like crazy but have you thought about the things that I said I needed? Are you willing to do anything to get me back or is sitting at home being sad your only way of telling me you need me in your life? Can you be a man of action? Can you tell me what you really really want for your life? Can you show me who you are? And do you want to really know me, inside and out?
Is what we had all we'll ever have?
I shouldn't say these things to him tho right... He should take action on his own. It should be in his heart right?
Or Will someday that be all I ever really needed?