Confessions
I confess that I am excited and mildly terrified to be buying a home. It feels as though I am trying to create and predict my future at the same time. As for the prediction part, I just found out my loan is in underwriting and I should find out the results by end of day on Friday.
I confess that I have never before felt this good at being newly single.
I confess that I am thinking about all the enjoyable prospects I have now as a single woman: using the rest of my EHarmony membership (paid through 11/1), talking to that cute guy at the gym who waves hello when he sees me, practicing my flirting skills, going on face-to-face and even impromptu dates, meeting a guy who lives in the same zip code as me.
I confess that I want to learn how to do a survey on LiveJournal so that I can see how many of my friends have -- to one degree or another -- internalized some of the same unhealthy messages about intimate relationships that I've found playing in my head this week.
I confess that hearing the unhealthy messages about intimate relationships only made me curious this time. Instead of getting all sad and beating myself up, I kind of stepped back a little and thought, "I need to take good care of myself right now and find positive messages with which to replace those negative ones."
I confess that I have wonderful, supportive friends who have helped me enormously. I want to hug them all right now. Feeling very grateful, even though I'm uncertain if I remember how to spell grateful.
I confess that I have never before felt this good at being newly single.
I confess that I am thinking about all the enjoyable prospects I have now as a single woman: using the rest of my EHarmony membership (paid through 11/1), talking to that cute guy at the gym who waves hello when he sees me, practicing my flirting skills, going on face-to-face and even impromptu dates, meeting a guy who lives in the same zip code as me.
I confess that I want to learn how to do a survey on LiveJournal so that I can see how many of my friends have -- to one degree or another -- internalized some of the same unhealthy messages about intimate relationships that I've found playing in my head this week.
I confess that hearing the unhealthy messages about intimate relationships only made me curious this time. Instead of getting all sad and beating myself up, I kind of stepped back a little and thought, "I need to take good care of myself right now and find positive messages with which to replace those negative ones."
I confess that I have wonderful, supportive friends who have helped me enormously. I want to hug them all right now. Feeling very grateful, even though I'm uncertain if I remember how to spell grateful.