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I really wanted to use my beloved watercolors tonight
I sat myself down
Got everything ready
And I just couldn't think of anything in the world I wanted to paint
So I sat there for a while longer
Closed my eyes.
And started thinking really hard of things that inspire me
And right away, one thing came to my mind
So I started to paint
And the whole time, I felt like my insides were singing
My fingers were tingling
And I started to get those butterflies
Who knew I'd actually feel all those wonderful emotions and sensations just painting this...
Gives you an idea how amazing I feel in reality
So stroke by stroke, color by color, there it was
A painting, yes
But all the answers I've been waiting for as well
And all this reassurance and certainty
Overwhelming, really
I didn't expect any of this
I was just bored and wanted to paint
But it was like therapy
I sorted everything out in my life with paint
And I haven't felt this certain in a long while
It's the first painting I've ever done that means something to me
Truly, absolutely, completely
It's not done yet
There will be much to add
But the story isn't fully written
So the painting isn't complete either
This just makes me realize
Something that inspires me this much can't be given up on
Distance is one thing
But throwing something good away would be STUPID
Why?
Why'm I suddenly building this wall & being annoyingly stubborn
I'M SCARED.
I tried to convince myself and everyone else I wasn't
But I am, completely.
I'm insecure & downright scared
But for once in my life, I'm totally patient
I'm happy right here, right now
And I'm enjoying life and the special situations in it progressing and taking place however they will
And it's wonderful, because I don't have to worry about anything!!
I don't know
Painting does something wonderful to me
I believe that life will take care of us all
And right now
I have complete faith that everything's going to work out for me
And everyone, for that matter
Time is a beautiful.
I sat myself down
Got everything ready
And I just couldn't think of anything in the world I wanted to paint
So I sat there for a while longer
Closed my eyes.
And started thinking really hard of things that inspire me
And right away, one thing came to my mind
So I started to paint
And the whole time, I felt like my insides were singing
My fingers were tingling
And I started to get those butterflies
Who knew I'd actually feel all those wonderful emotions and sensations just painting this...
Gives you an idea how amazing I feel in reality
So stroke by stroke, color by color, there it was
A painting, yes
But all the answers I've been waiting for as well
And all this reassurance and certainty
Overwhelming, really
I didn't expect any of this
I was just bored and wanted to paint
But it was like therapy
I sorted everything out in my life with paint
And I haven't felt this certain in a long while
It's the first painting I've ever done that means something to me
Truly, absolutely, completely
It's not done yet
There will be much to add
But the story isn't fully written
So the painting isn't complete either
This just makes me realize
Something that inspires me this much can't be given up on
Distance is one thing
But throwing something good away would be STUPID
Why?
Why'm I suddenly building this wall & being annoyingly stubborn
I'M SCARED.
I tried to convince myself and everyone else I wasn't
But I am, completely.
I'm insecure & downright scared
But for once in my life, I'm totally patient
I'm happy right here, right now
And I'm enjoying life and the special situations in it progressing and taking place however they will
And it's wonderful, because I don't have to worry about anything!!
I don't know
Painting does something wonderful to me
I believe that life will take care of us all
And right now
I have complete faith that everything's going to work out for me
And everyone, for that matter
Time is a beautiful.