I'm going to die by the time I'm 30
YES, that's right! I'm sick all the time, and can't even go to the doctor's office because I do not have insurance. It really bites! Then, my "best friend" was being totally out of line, and so we're not friends anymore. I'm dealing with school, getting a GOOD permanent job, and trying to juggle friends and family. Of course, now, I really only have two close friends..... It is really bothering me.....Not the fact that I have so little friends, but the fact that people have the nerve to call ME selfish!!! Whatever! I'm so sick of always being there for people, and then THEY treat me like crap!!! It's not my fault her boyfriend cheated on her! Jeez, the nerve of some people. I don't get it sometimes. I put everyone before myself, and this is how I get treated.... I mean, I'm actually doing well in school, but sometimes, I really feel like I cannot handle school! Because of all the crap from my dad growing up, pressures now, and just what the future holds for me. Sometimes, I don't want to know. I know that I disappoint people because of how I look, I mean, I know I'm not the prettiest, and certainly not skinny, but I have a personality, that I thought was pretty great. But people are showing me otherwise, and I'm really starting to doubt myself...... :(