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Update on the kiln: everything turned out ok. Several of the glaze projects look kinda weird because the temp was high for too long...and a couple of things dripped onto the shelf, but nothing bad. A few projects cracked that probably wouldn't have if fired normally, but no major explosions, and no glaze on the kiln itself. I mostly just caused the school to have an extra-large electricity bill. :)
Anyway, I've been absent from a lot of things lately - especially when it comes to keeping up with people via the internet. It's not that I don't care anymore, I promise.
I've been struggling with a lot of things this Spring, and it's not even all related to Mom's death, although that has been a big factor. I can't believe she's gone...and that's all I'm going to say on that subject.
I've been having depression issues lately, and I can't decide how much of it is related to Mom...and how much of it isn't. I sometimes feel like I need to up my meds, but I refuse to do it. I can't handle the weight gain, and as trivial as it sounds, I refuse to up the meds because I don't want to weigh more. (I'm w/in 5 lbs of my highest weight ever - although I was shorter at the time, so it looked worse) In fact, after gaining enough weight in the past few weeks that hardly any of my pants fit anymore - I decided Wednesday to lower my dosage. I'm cutting my pills in half now. So far I haven't had much withdrawal...just some headaches that could possibly be attributed to the increase in pollen. Who knows.
I'm currently sitting at school...I came here to clean and organize, but I'm procrastinating. Big surprise there. I'm kinda proud that I even made it up here today. BTW, it's a bit odd watching people set up for a church service in the school where you work.
Speaking of school, I am so tired of it...I want it to be summer. I can't decide whether my apathy towards school is a result of my depression or a contributor to the depression. Either way, I don't want to be here. I don't want to deal with the obnoxious kids anymore. I still enjoy working with the good ones, but I seriously have NO patience for the brats anymore. I've written more referrals in the past 2 weeks than I have in the past 4 months. Only one of the referrals was an "I've had it with annoying behavior x" type referral. The rest were for something sudden - like starting a fight over dirt on a shoe. (Yes. it happened. in the middle of my class)
Anyway, here's hoping that cleaning my classroom will induce the zen-like feeling that cleaning sometimes does.
Anyway, I've been absent from a lot of things lately - especially when it comes to keeping up with people via the internet. It's not that I don't care anymore, I promise.
I've been struggling with a lot of things this Spring, and it's not even all related to Mom's death, although that has been a big factor. I can't believe she's gone...and that's all I'm going to say on that subject.
I've been having depression issues lately, and I can't decide how much of it is related to Mom...and how much of it isn't. I sometimes feel like I need to up my meds, but I refuse to do it. I can't handle the weight gain, and as trivial as it sounds, I refuse to up the meds because I don't want to weigh more. (I'm w/in 5 lbs of my highest weight ever - although I was shorter at the time, so it looked worse) In fact, after gaining enough weight in the past few weeks that hardly any of my pants fit anymore - I decided Wednesday to lower my dosage. I'm cutting my pills in half now. So far I haven't had much withdrawal...just some headaches that could possibly be attributed to the increase in pollen. Who knows.
I'm currently sitting at school...I came here to clean and organize, but I'm procrastinating. Big surprise there. I'm kinda proud that I even made it up here today. BTW, it's a bit odd watching people set up for a church service in the school where you work.
Speaking of school, I am so tired of it...I want it to be summer. I can't decide whether my apathy towards school is a result of my depression or a contributor to the depression. Either way, I don't want to be here. I don't want to deal with the obnoxious kids anymore. I still enjoy working with the good ones, but I seriously have NO patience for the brats anymore. I've written more referrals in the past 2 weeks than I have in the past 4 months. Only one of the referrals was an "I've had it with annoying behavior x" type referral. The rest were for something sudden - like starting a fight over dirt on a shoe. (Yes. it happened. in the middle of my class)
Anyway, here's hoping that cleaning my classroom will induce the zen-like feeling that cleaning sometimes does.