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Wow, its been a while, I always hate it when LJ updates start that way. Anyways, I really should start writing again -I have so much to complain about like today- haha Thanks Kristen for poking my journal. My life is doing fairly well right, school is whooping me like last quarter (prolly why I didnt write at all) Kris and I are good, my family is good, friends are, well friends for the most part. Oh and work is alright.
In any event, I have prolly been hard to get a hold of as of late, mostly to my friends. I think I just sorted out my life, also a bit is because now I have my own room -yay- and I love my privacy. I like time to myself, it keeps me sane. I guess last quarter was so insane I couldn't deal with it.
I'm doing this thing, where I'm torn between being a good person or a bad person, I think I'm only one or the other. So either I'm doing really good, or really bad. I guess I just need to accept that I, and everyone else is just some of both.
I apologize if I've been hard to deal with lately, difficult to be friends with, but I know I've been harsh, i sure have been giving Frank hell anyways, but he's so easy to mess with. And I don't really hang out with the girls, but I wouldn't even know how. Of course, really I just hang out with Kris, but its good, because it makes me happy, and I feel like myself when I'm with him, more so than any other time. I'm so different with my home friends and my school friends, too afraid to hang out with either, hates change in people places things, hates drinking, is afraid of failure, is subject to stress. so college kids aren't 'my type' and college is bad for my physical/mental health. But for now, I'm doing better so, yeah. I need to find a healthy balance, haha, the one thing about life Amrit and I ever agreed one. We need to find a perfect balance, and everything will be fine. Let's all work on this together..
In any event, I have prolly been hard to get a hold of as of late, mostly to my friends. I think I just sorted out my life, also a bit is because now I have my own room -yay- and I love my privacy. I like time to myself, it keeps me sane. I guess last quarter was so insane I couldn't deal with it.
I'm doing this thing, where I'm torn between being a good person or a bad person, I think I'm only one or the other. So either I'm doing really good, or really bad. I guess I just need to accept that I, and everyone else is just some of both.
I apologize if I've been hard to deal with lately, difficult to be friends with, but I know I've been harsh, i sure have been giving Frank hell anyways, but he's so easy to mess with. And I don't really hang out with the girls, but I wouldn't even know how. Of course, really I just hang out with Kris, but its good, because it makes me happy, and I feel like myself when I'm with him, more so than any other time. I'm so different with my home friends and my school friends, too afraid to hang out with either, hates change in people places things, hates drinking, is afraid of failure, is subject to stress. so college kids aren't 'my type' and college is bad for my physical/mental health. But for now, I'm doing better so, yeah. I need to find a healthy balance, haha, the one thing about life Amrit and I ever agreed one. We need to find a perfect balance, and everything will be fine. Let's all work on this together..