update
Yesterday I went home for all of my Pre-Admission testing for the surgery. I had bloodwork done, another EKG and a chest x-ray. Everything was fine except for the bloodwork. I have really small veins so it was hard to get enough blood out. The technician couldn't do it in the arm like usual, so she had to use the back of my hand which hurt a lot. When she tried the right hand it was alright, but then started to really hurt. She moved the needle around a little bit and got some more but then the vein collapsed, so she had to start one of the tubes all over. She had someone bring her a smaller needle for the left hand and it still had some trouble but I managed to give enough for the tests. I have a bruise and a swollen area on my right hand but I'll live. I'm getting more nervous about the surgery, and wondering how it's all going to feel because I'll be awake for it but pretty comfortable with narcotics. That's so scary to have narcotics in you! I wonder what the recovery will be like, and I wonder how uncomfortable I'll be lying down flat for 17 hours. I wonder if I'll have to use a gross bedpan or if I'll have another catheder that will really really hurt. I wonder if my legs will hurt where they put the tubes in, and how they will heal afterwards. I wonder a lot, but mostly I wonder if I'll be ok. I think I will because the chance of me dying from this is really slim, but I could have to have a pace-maker if they slip. I'm too young for all of this. But oh well, it's God's will.
I'm really happy that most of my friends are being really supportive and people I just met are letting me know they'll be there for me if I need something. Jen (my supervisor) is offering me her couch in the event I can't climb stairs for a couple days after. Christie was going to make a trip up just to see me, but her dad told her she shouldn't because she's already so nervous about it, and no one should drive that far nervous. I agree, but I'm glad she thought of driving 500 miles just for me. I wonder who will visit. Everyone's being so nice. Well almost everyone. There's a person or two who I think have read this and haven't said anything to me at all about the surgery. One person I know definitely still reads livejournal and hasn't spoken to me since August. Whatever, I'm not going to waste my time on someone I thought cared about me when they obviously don't. I have friends, and I'm making some more so there's no loss really. I'm sure they'll get along fine without my caring words now and then. It's not like I ever got a response anyway.
I cut my hair really short today. Amanda and I donated to locks of love. I really like her hair; it makes her look older. Apparently mine does too. I'm happy with it, and I think I actually like it better like this. So if you visit me in the hospital and don't see me before then, don't be surprised when you see all my hair is gone! :-) I have to go put some laundry and food away. I love my mom, she's the best!
I'm really happy that most of my friends are being really supportive and people I just met are letting me know they'll be there for me if I need something. Jen (my supervisor) is offering me her couch in the event I can't climb stairs for a couple days after. Christie was going to make a trip up just to see me, but her dad told her she shouldn't because she's already so nervous about it, and no one should drive that far nervous. I agree, but I'm glad she thought of driving 500 miles just for me. I wonder who will visit. Everyone's being so nice. Well almost everyone. There's a person or two who I think have read this and haven't said anything to me at all about the surgery. One person I know definitely still reads livejournal and hasn't spoken to me since August. Whatever, I'm not going to waste my time on someone I thought cared about me when they obviously don't. I have friends, and I'm making some more so there's no loss really. I'm sure they'll get along fine without my caring words now and then. It's not like I ever got a response anyway.
I cut my hair really short today. Amanda and I donated to locks of love. I really like her hair; it makes her look older. Apparently mine does too. I'm happy with it, and I think I actually like it better like this. So if you visit me in the hospital and don't see me before then, don't be surprised when you see all my hair is gone! :-) I have to go put some laundry and food away. I love my mom, she's the best!