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wow everythings all messed up at home.
i went out tonight, wen i wasnt supposed to.. but i got my dad to let me. so my mom flipped. she sed this week is gonna be hell for me. and shes callin the skool to inform them of all the skool ive missed. i dnk.. i stayed in last night, ugh jus.. icouldnt tonight. i will another weekend i swear. but i couldnt this weekend.. i think my mom is sumwut disgusted or ashamed of me.. i dnk, it sucks. i didnt wanna be in this fight with her but she doesnt understand a lot.. i dont even understand it all. i think im out of control. i cant even control myself anymore, its sad. i cant go one day..
im gonna be grounded for so much longer, i can jus see it now. and im not allowed to drive my car to skool in the mornin again. which is ok wit me.. i like wen i dont have it. im not tempted to do stupid things. my mom just misses the way i was in like last term.. i did really good in skool.. i think because of Jimmy. and of me getting caught with the drugs. I straightened out for a while and everything.. i did all my school work n shit.. me and jimmy both straightened out then.. look at us now.. wow heh, im thinkin a wikkid lot tonight. its drivin me crazy, ill never be able to get to sleep.. this is y i love sleeping out, i dont think about all this. im so happy nobodys home rigth now.. this is wut i needed!
i wrote my psychology essay last night.. i wasnt planning on doing it so im actually really happy.. i really need to pass this term to show my parents im not doin bad but omg.. i have like a 30 in Chemistry.. and forget my Spanish grade, i havent done one test.. and in English, i havent done any assignments, .. in History i didnt do any of my test.. i wrote my name and that was it.
i keep thinkin.. my mind isnt stopping, and my mom jus came home.. yuckie.
my dad had this whole talk wit me over the phone about how im only hurting myself and i need to get under control and think real hard about wut im doing with my life and where im leading it. its crazy, but he makes points. i wanna be better.. in a way jus for him. to make him proud for once. im the only one that doesnt make my parents proud.. like, Dave has a good life ahead of him, hes wikkid involved wit the town and shit like that..Amanda, is in college gettin her psych. degree and shit.. has a good stable job and has a hella lot of money in the bank. Rusty, well hes jus a genious..and def has a great future.. and even tho hes a pothead and god knows wut else.. it dont matter cuz hes a lucky fuck lol.. and then me.. well im their lil druggie daughter whos failin outta skool and blows all her money in one night.. ehh this negative thinkins gotta stop.
i wish i was still at James' house. oh me and issuez are like.. cool again. i dnk if i should sey that cuz im still questioning her all of a sudden chillness lol shes jus like me tho its weird. i dunno if her and james are like getin back together, cuz i dnk where she jus like showed up and started chilli its random so thats wut im guessin but ill ask wuts up later.
im in a lot of trouble.. im gonna do so much better now and keep up.. hopefully
i have nothing more to talk about but i cant stop talking.. im gonna go do something, lata
i went out tonight, wen i wasnt supposed to.. but i got my dad to let me. so my mom flipped. she sed this week is gonna be hell for me. and shes callin the skool to inform them of all the skool ive missed. i dnk.. i stayed in last night, ugh jus.. icouldnt tonight. i will another weekend i swear. but i couldnt this weekend.. i think my mom is sumwut disgusted or ashamed of me.. i dnk, it sucks. i didnt wanna be in this fight with her but she doesnt understand a lot.. i dont even understand it all. i think im out of control. i cant even control myself anymore, its sad. i cant go one day..
im gonna be grounded for so much longer, i can jus see it now. and im not allowed to drive my car to skool in the mornin again. which is ok wit me.. i like wen i dont have it. im not tempted to do stupid things. my mom just misses the way i was in like last term.. i did really good in skool.. i think because of Jimmy. and of me getting caught with the drugs. I straightened out for a while and everything.. i did all my school work n shit.. me and jimmy both straightened out then.. look at us now.. wow heh, im thinkin a wikkid lot tonight. its drivin me crazy, ill never be able to get to sleep.. this is y i love sleeping out, i dont think about all this. im so happy nobodys home rigth now.. this is wut i needed!
i wrote my psychology essay last night.. i wasnt planning on doing it so im actually really happy.. i really need to pass this term to show my parents im not doin bad but omg.. i have like a 30 in Chemistry.. and forget my Spanish grade, i havent done one test.. and in English, i havent done any assignments, .. in History i didnt do any of my test.. i wrote my name and that was it.
i keep thinkin.. my mind isnt stopping, and my mom jus came home.. yuckie.
my dad had this whole talk wit me over the phone about how im only hurting myself and i need to get under control and think real hard about wut im doing with my life and where im leading it. its crazy, but he makes points. i wanna be better.. in a way jus for him. to make him proud for once. im the only one that doesnt make my parents proud.. like, Dave has a good life ahead of him, hes wikkid involved wit the town and shit like that..Amanda, is in college gettin her psych. degree and shit.. has a good stable job and has a hella lot of money in the bank. Rusty, well hes jus a genious..and def has a great future.. and even tho hes a pothead and god knows wut else.. it dont matter cuz hes a lucky fuck lol.. and then me.. well im their lil druggie daughter whos failin outta skool and blows all her money in one night.. ehh this negative thinkins gotta stop.
i wish i was still at James' house. oh me and issuez are like.. cool again. i dnk if i should sey that cuz im still questioning her all of a sudden chillness lol shes jus like me tho its weird. i dunno if her and james are like getin back together, cuz i dnk where she jus like showed up and started chilli its random so thats wut im guessin but ill ask wuts up later.
im in a lot of trouble.. im gonna do so much better now and keep up.. hopefully
i have nothing more to talk about but i cant stop talking.. im gonna go do something, lata