the mean reds
i'm so tired of "social networking" but i have some awesome pals who post inspirational song lyrics, poetry, and videos on such a regular basis that i can't quit. yet. but i'm tempted. every once in a while when i log on, i am reminded to "reconnect" with friends that i have added but don't talk to. these "friends" are friends in name only. some of these "friends" have seen the worst in me and me in them. somehow we are faux friends on a stupid website because of what? we've moved on? without even engaging in a conversation about all the fucked up things that we did to each other? it feels...off. i just want to forget. i'm hating technology.
and i find myself in isolation mode. i don't want to drink. i don't want to waste time. i feel like there are more important things that i need to accomplish... as to what they are...i have yet to find them! i really need a collaborator. i work much better in a partnership. but that has been difficult to find.
complain complain complain. my age is catching up with me. in some ways, i feel like i should really embrace what's left of my youth and live it up. but the mini-curmudgeon in me won't let me. ah well. booze is too expensive and contains too many calories. coffee will remain my main squeeze.
off to read about manet in an attempt to instill some knowledge into my addled brain.
and i find myself in isolation mode. i don't want to drink. i don't want to waste time. i feel like there are more important things that i need to accomplish... as to what they are...i have yet to find them! i really need a collaborator. i work much better in a partnership. but that has been difficult to find.
complain complain complain. my age is catching up with me. in some ways, i feel like i should really embrace what's left of my youth and live it up. but the mini-curmudgeon in me won't let me. ah well. booze is too expensive and contains too many calories. coffee will remain my main squeeze.
off to read about manet in an attempt to instill some knowledge into my addled brain.