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My weekend was pretty good for the most part. Friday night I was so exhausted from school I ended up going to bed at like 9:20 freakin early as hell but it was good I got so much needed rest. But yeah, anyways, saturday was the show. Freakin yesss :) Gosh, I'm so glad brian's in a band.. he's wanted to be for so long it's really neat.But yeah, they played good, I took lots of pictures that I don't think will come out, but at least I tried, right? Lauren and I acted stupid like... the whole night. Tuck & roll out of a car, being yelled at by the waffle house lady, laughing in the bathroom... just all in all being crazy. Then I spent the night with lauren and that was happy cause I havent hung out with her in so long. And thennn, sunday we chilled a little and went and saw gardenstate, I completely recommend it. It's so good.
I've realized a lot of things this past weekend and these past few weeks in general. I am really happy now, I can finally be happy and be okay with that. Most of you probably don't know how depressed and shitty I can be, but now I don't feel like I need that, and when I do, it will come and pass.. I don't feel like I've got this tidal wave of guilt and sorrow and shit looming over my head anymore, I can feel like I have the ability to be okay, whereas before I didn't. I've made some really bad mistakes these past few weeks and I plan on fixing them, because you know what, I love Brian Leebrick with the whole of my heart, and I truely believe that he's the one for me, and that he's all I really need. And I love life. Finally.. I feel like I have something right going for me in my head and in my heart. I just hope I can work hard enough to gain back all I lost. no.. I know I will. I have to.
It's been a long time since I felt so infinite or pure and happy in my life.
It's amazing.
I've realized a lot of things this past weekend and these past few weeks in general. I am really happy now, I can finally be happy and be okay with that. Most of you probably don't know how depressed and shitty I can be, but now I don't feel like I need that, and when I do, it will come and pass.. I don't feel like I've got this tidal wave of guilt and sorrow and shit looming over my head anymore, I can feel like I have the ability to be okay, whereas before I didn't. I've made some really bad mistakes these past few weeks and I plan on fixing them, because you know what, I love Brian Leebrick with the whole of my heart, and I truely believe that he's the one for me, and that he's all I really need. And I love life. Finally.. I feel like I have something right going for me in my head and in my heart. I just hope I can work hard enough to gain back all I lost. no.. I know I will. I have to.
It's been a long time since I felt so infinite or pure and happy in my life.
It's amazing.