Is it wrong to question my readers sanity?
Okay it isn't that I'm ungrateful, I'm GLAD readers read anything I post AT ALL...
but what the hell is up with the fact that people ALWAYS like my SHITTIEST fics most? *headdesks into oblivion*
MAYBE it is relevent that the Science Boyfriends fandom strangely just DIED a few months ago and it went from dozens of fics on AO3 a day to one or two, or on tumblr going from dozens of posts in the tag to one or two, or science boyfriends blogs magically stopping updating. But the point is, my first SUPER POPULAR fics were Science Boyfriends.
... Four days ago I posted a pretty decent little under 10K science boyfriends fic that's really good and emotional and angsty... and it's only got 450 hits... I have RPS fics that get more clicks in 4 days than that and RPS is INFINITELY less popular on AO3! AND TO MAKE IT WORSE! I wrote this STUPID and SHITTY little fic about the Avengers discussing their tattoos because I was bored and decided against better judgment to post it in the end....
in one day it's got over 1300 hits, 80 Kudos, and 10 bookmarks.
WHY. IS. SHIT. SO. POPULAR. BUT. MY. GOOD. FICS. ARENT?!
It's always been like this! Remember (some of you) in 2011 when, for BBB, I posted first a cute little fic about a bakery and it was STUPIDLY POPULAR, one of my most popular stories in Bandom EVER. It was a good fic, I'm not denying that, one of my best even... but then my wave 2 that year was a lesser-enjoyed pairing but still one that a LOT of people read and it got SHIT! SHIT! I mean, I don't know if it had more than one or two comments since I posted it 2 years ago. HOWEVER that is one of my BEST fics ever, in my opinion. The creativity, the EMOTIONS involved- my beta, who didn't even read bandom fics at the time (i_glitterz I think it was) LOVED THAT FIC FOR ITS EMOTIONS- and yet NOTHING!
It's always this way. Even with more popular pairings, the best fics get the least recognition.
For a little while a few months back, I was getting messages on tumblr and people sharing around ON TWITTER IN PUBLIC one of my SHITTIEST FICS EVER and people still praise me for it in PMs and on tumblr and I cannot even read the first chapter without wanting to google the nearest cliff. (It was the first BIG fic I ever wrote, I was like 16, of course it was shit)
*sigh* I have so little faith for readers of fanfiction, man. It's like they all love shit and ignore stuff that's actually not shit.
but what the hell is up with the fact that people ALWAYS like my SHITTIEST fics most? *headdesks into oblivion*
MAYBE it is relevent that the Science Boyfriends fandom strangely just DIED a few months ago and it went from dozens of fics on AO3 a day to one or two, or on tumblr going from dozens of posts in the tag to one or two, or science boyfriends blogs magically stopping updating. But the point is, my first SUPER POPULAR fics were Science Boyfriends.
... Four days ago I posted a pretty decent little under 10K science boyfriends fic that's really good and emotional and angsty... and it's only got 450 hits... I have RPS fics that get more clicks in 4 days than that and RPS is INFINITELY less popular on AO3! AND TO MAKE IT WORSE! I wrote this STUPID and SHITTY little fic about the Avengers discussing their tattoos because I was bored and decided against better judgment to post it in the end....
in one day it's got over 1300 hits, 80 Kudos, and 10 bookmarks.
WHY. IS. SHIT. SO. POPULAR. BUT. MY. GOOD. FICS. ARENT?!
It's always been like this! Remember (some of you) in 2011 when, for BBB, I posted first a cute little fic about a bakery and it was STUPIDLY POPULAR, one of my most popular stories in Bandom EVER. It was a good fic, I'm not denying that, one of my best even... but then my wave 2 that year was a lesser-enjoyed pairing but still one that a LOT of people read and it got SHIT! SHIT! I mean, I don't know if it had more than one or two comments since I posted it 2 years ago. HOWEVER that is one of my BEST fics ever, in my opinion. The creativity, the EMOTIONS involved- my beta, who didn't even read bandom fics at the time (i_glitterz I think it was) LOVED THAT FIC FOR ITS EMOTIONS- and yet NOTHING!
It's always this way. Even with more popular pairings, the best fics get the least recognition.
For a little while a few months back, I was getting messages on tumblr and people sharing around ON TWITTER IN PUBLIC one of my SHITTIEST FICS EVER and people still praise me for it in PMs and on tumblr and I cannot even read the first chapter without wanting to google the nearest cliff. (It was the first BIG fic I ever wrote, I was like 16, of course it was shit)
*sigh* I have so little faith for readers of fanfiction, man. It's like they all love shit and ignore stuff that's actually not shit.