"Don't you know, you fool, you never can win, Use your mentality, wake up to reality"

[hearts_and_shit]

While at Disney, I had a lot of time to reflect. I didn't use any of it, of course, but I somehow came to a few conclusions about why the recent debacle in my life was so difficult for me to deal with. It was the first time in my life I was confronted with a problem that had no "right" answer. All my options would hurt someone. I even asked someone involved in the mess how to avoid hurting anyone, and the answer was essentially, "You're the one who's gonna get hurt. Suck it up." It was said much more kindly, of course (well, it wasn't really said at all, but more implied). It was terribly embarrassing for me to ask in the first place, especially because it was probably interpreted differently. But the point is that I usually make the wrong choice, but knowing that a right choice exists is an incredible comfort. And I don't have that. On the up side, I'm now able to watch Maury and think to myself that if I (and I suppose a couple of other people) were a bit more immoral, I could one-up any of those fuckers.

Umm apparently I can be fluent in Spanish when I'm not taking an AP test. A Mexican man called my sister because he was interested in renting a trailor (my sister owns a trailor park), and I had to act as translator. I somehow pulled it off, AND used the subjunctive mood correctly! Ms. Oramas would be so proud.

Okay, I have a lot of random facebook and e-mail stuff to reply to. Adios.