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im sick of feeling this way. Just sick of it. Feeling like im useless.Allowing people in my life who hurt me, and continuing to allow people treat me like shit. Wanting to end my whole life because i allowed someone to treat me like shit. Its my fault, it is,.Its like an addiction , i keep taking people back. Like my eating disorder. i think alot of the reason why i become so close in relationships with people who i allow to hurt me is partly because of the verbal abuse i was around growing up with my father. Witnessing my mother go through that, my brother and myself.I have to end the cycle. I beleive once i do that, possibly theres hope for my eating disorder and my depression. im calmer now..Good night.