save your stable feelings cos' they're worth more than your moving car
I'd rather walk knowing where I'm headed instead of getting into accidents for confused thoughts.
feeling slightly confused. I'm eating way too many altoids. I saw wicker park. it wasn't bad. actually it started out horrible, cliche, but then it sped up in the middle to the end. really nice panning and the way they split the screen in two parts showing the front and back views. the flashbacks. the plot was satisfying when everything connected. I hope I'm not that horrible girl who ruins everything. I mean I don't want to be the main character, I sort of just want to be off to the side, not effecting things but observing. I remember wanting to watch it because it had good music, so I rented it because life aquatic wasn't there, nor was ray, I don't think it could've been another movie today.
I'm going to violin camp. {I got the scholarship and my violin teacher talked me into changing my mind} it isn't slapping me with anything. I mean, I don't feel anything. excitement, disappointment. nada. I wanted to go to california for my birthday but I guess not. you could change my mind even if you had duct tape over your mouth.
I can't wait till june. scratch that. I can't wait till summer. I can't wait till wednesday is over with. after turning in my history project this will be all over. I know, the project is going to graded glancewise. she looks at it and if it has the criteria, people will get 100. but all my projects, I feel compelled to do something creative and overachieving. type. I hate it. and when other people slack off, they get the same grade, it's just so lowering self-esteemish. I actually just hate it when people get better grades even though they didn't work as hard.
but that's the way this world works honey. if they don't get a break. who will?
I'm rambling. I know it. today feels like a sunday. and everyone seems to have a birthday in may. I'd like to think fall out boy's last song XO is alluding to elliott smith but I doubt it. because other than the title it doesn't relate much. I sort of need to get back focused again. I can't remember when my life seemed focused. I can't remember the last time I saw things clearly. not even rilo kiley night.
what a shame. I did have a good time, even though I felt uncomfortable in the beginning. but when I came back to school. it was the same routine. I didn't feel any better. I think I'm just thinking bout the wrong things. I'm so pinned onto the bad moments that I'm forgetting to bring up the good ones. I need a digital camera. I think I'm just gonna screw it and take my $700 and go crazy. and buy everything I want. till I'm really broke. then I'll vow never to buy anything ever again. except going to shows. because I still have not seen thursday or fall out boy live. but I'll always want something. hold your money tight kids.
lust for technology is just problems rushed.
I'm confused. I need some sleep or a good day.
this is too long to make sense.
this is like your pocket lint.
throw away & forget it.
P.S. my brother gave me his old earphones and his cd player. thanks bro. now I feel like I'm underwater with between the bars playing. you've gotta admit, technology is pretty awesome sometimes.
EDIT: and elliott's voice...I'm listening to the original version. oh my dear god. this is beautiful. it's like what I imagine those big headphones like in garden state, but these are small earbuds. but so. into your head{thoughts}.
feeling slightly confused. I'm eating way too many altoids. I saw wicker park. it wasn't bad. actually it started out horrible, cliche, but then it sped up in the middle to the end. really nice panning and the way they split the screen in two parts showing the front and back views. the flashbacks. the plot was satisfying when everything connected. I hope I'm not that horrible girl who ruins everything. I mean I don't want to be the main character, I sort of just want to be off to the side, not effecting things but observing. I remember wanting to watch it because it had good music, so I rented it because life aquatic wasn't there, nor was ray, I don't think it could've been another movie today.
I'm going to violin camp. {I got the scholarship and my violin teacher talked me into changing my mind} it isn't slapping me with anything. I mean, I don't feel anything. excitement, disappointment. nada. I wanted to go to california for my birthday but I guess not. you could change my mind even if you had duct tape over your mouth.
I can't wait till june. scratch that. I can't wait till summer. I can't wait till wednesday is over with. after turning in my history project this will be all over. I know, the project is going to graded glancewise. she looks at it and if it has the criteria, people will get 100. but all my projects, I feel compelled to do something creative and overachieving. type. I hate it. and when other people slack off, they get the same grade, it's just so lowering self-esteemish. I actually just hate it when people get better grades even though they didn't work as hard.
but that's the way this world works honey. if they don't get a break. who will?
I'm rambling. I know it. today feels like a sunday. and everyone seems to have a birthday in may. I'd like to think fall out boy's last song XO is alluding to elliott smith but I doubt it. because other than the title it doesn't relate much. I sort of need to get back focused again. I can't remember when my life seemed focused. I can't remember the last time I saw things clearly. not even rilo kiley night.
what a shame. I did have a good time, even though I felt uncomfortable in the beginning. but when I came back to school. it was the same routine. I didn't feel any better. I think I'm just thinking bout the wrong things. I'm so pinned onto the bad moments that I'm forgetting to bring up the good ones. I need a digital camera. I think I'm just gonna screw it and take my $700 and go crazy. and buy everything I want. till I'm really broke. then I'll vow never to buy anything ever again. except going to shows. because I still have not seen thursday or fall out boy live. but I'll always want something. hold your money tight kids.
lust for technology is just problems rushed.
I'm confused. I need some sleep or a good day.
this is too long to make sense.
this is like your pocket lint.
throw away & forget it.
P.S. my brother gave me his old earphones and his cd player. thanks bro. now I feel like I'm underwater with between the bars playing. you've gotta admit, technology is pretty awesome sometimes.
EDIT: and elliott's voice...I'm listening to the original version. oh my dear god. this is beautiful. it's like what I imagine those big headphones like in garden state, but these are small earbuds. but so. into your head{thoughts}.