the view from here is. . .
I've been wanting to write this for so long, had so much to say for so long but couldn't. . .didn't have the words. So here I am after a night of great friends. . .here i am again with so much to say and not sure how it should be said. It's funny or not that you are still here in my thoughts. . .after so long you should be gone by now. . .but you're not, you linger just enough. . .making me so happy. . .making me so sad. I have so much to say, but no voice to speak. To make. . .to have you understand. . .to even care. To look my way. . .the way you did before, before all this happened. Never will you look at be with longing eyes. Longing for the next time you will see me. . .wanting, waiting to figure me out. You know all you want and it wasn't what you hoped. All alone I am. Still here with you on my mind. . .fighting myself to just move on. Never good enough for just one; not good enough for one. I long for the day where I am looked at with Longing eyes, Caring eyes, Loving eyes; not fake, for the moment eyes. . .no. . .For me, the all of me, the true me. . .good and bad. Wishes don't keep me warm at night; you did. Now you are gone; just a place once happy. I know this will get better. . .for hell I hope it never gets worst. . .not sure how much more I can take. Bad things always happen in 3's. . .i'm ready for the good to start♥