Its not fair....??
<><>Is it just me or is nothing kept sacred anymore!? For example I hooked up with this kid...and everyone and their mothers know about it..Poeple I haven't seen for months come up to me and they're like "Did u have fun hooking up with....?"Like how the hell do they know that?! Then you get the phone calls "OMG Akilah you hooked up with...??" I kinda feel like all these people are talking shit behind my back about what I did....I kno it wasnt the smartest decision I ever made, but for real theres no reason to go spreading it around like its everyones business..I'm still tyring to forget what happened and people just keep bringing it up!!! It was a secret that noone else needed to know about I dont need everyone we used to go to school with knowing my business unless I want them to know!!!! Does that make me a bitch!? Or does that make me human?! Am I over reacting? Or am I being a girl!? I just don't like my business out there for everyone to know...I dont think its fair....
<><>Also do you ever feel left out hanging out with ur "best friends"? I do...all the ti..Last time I checked they didnt really like eachother..but hell they're good actresses! But every single we go out as the 3 of us, I always feel awkward..like theres no reason for me to be there at all..and it's not that I'm jealous of tem getting along, cuz usually my friends dont like eachother at all...but I don't like the feeling of being "out of the box" when we go out...I just shouldn't even go out with them anymore..I;ll get more sleep thats for sure!! LOL and I won't have to worry about any type of ler disease brought on my alohol since I know I wont be drinking..lol Thats another thing I think they might be slight alcoholics!!! They drink every night they're together and I know thats not healthy at all, but apparently one of them thinks I'm more fun when i'm drunk....I just wanna point out that the only time she's ever seen me seriously trashed I was crying and saying I wanted to die..But if thats what she consideres me being fun..I'd much rather be the boring friend than the drunk and depressed friend....
xoxo
<><>Also do you ever feel left out hanging out with ur "best friends"? I do...all the ti..Last time I checked they didnt really like eachother..but hell they're good actresses! But every single we go out as the 3 of us, I always feel awkward..like theres no reason for me to be there at all..and it's not that I'm jealous of tem getting along, cuz usually my friends dont like eachother at all...but I don't like the feeling of being "out of the box" when we go out...I just shouldn't even go out with them anymore..I;ll get more sleep thats for sure!! LOL and I won't have to worry about any type of ler disease brought on my alohol since I know I wont be drinking..lol Thats another thing I think they might be slight alcoholics!!! They drink every night they're together and I know thats not healthy at all, but apparently one of them thinks I'm more fun when i'm drunk....I just wanna point out that the only time she's ever seen me seriously trashed I was crying and saying I wanted to die..But if thats what she consideres me being fun..I'd much rather be the boring friend than the drunk and depressed friend....
xoxo