I (want to) Believe I Can Fly
Recently,, I had a lot of thing in my mind.. And most of it is about Japan..
When I think about Japan,, the first thing that came in my head is (of course Arashi).. Although I fell in love with Japan from long long ago (and it's not because of Arashi),, but YES,, Arashi always comes first.. I have this dream : someday I will go to Japan to watch Arashi's concert.. And also,, continue my study..
Everytime I think about Japan,, I feel happy,, because I was thinking about Arashi.. When I thinking about Arashi,, I always remember their funny-foolish thingy.. And I always laughing..
But when I think about how much I want to continue my study in Japan,, it turns very sad..
The question is : WHY? WHAT HAPPENED?
As you may know,, I take major in Nutrition.. Maybe in about 8 months,, I will graduate and get my bachelor degree.. My future goal is take an undergraduate program,, and I decided to take program about clinical nutrition.. I want to learn about nutrition works on clinical field deeper,, so yeah,, I want to take it so bad..
And then I make a research about Universities that have undergraduate program in clinical nutrition.. The inclusion is University that have the program in clinical nutrition,, and it must in foreign country.. But not just an ordinary "foreign country".. It has to be near with Indonesia.. So I started my search on country,, such as Australia,, South Korea,, Philippine,, and of course JAPAN..
I found that clinical nutrition program is a little difficult to find.. But luckily,, I find it.. And as an addition : IT IS LOCATED IN JAPAN..!!! The University name is : TOKUSHIMA UNIVERSITY.. And it has an undergraduate program in clinical nutrition.. We have to study there for 2 years.. That will be super exciting,, that's what I'm thinking.. Studying in Japan and also an exclusive access to watch Arashi's variety show everydaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay..
It makes me so happy.. And I made up my mind : I WILL CONTINUE MY STUDY THERE..
But suddenly,, something happened.. My mother is not working anymore.. That makes everything change.. Now,, when I thinking about the past,, I never thought such thing happened.. I never thought that someday my mother will stop working,, and my family has to re-check about all the plans that requires a lot of money.. For example : STUDYING ABROAD.. In the past,, when both my parent are working,, my younger brother and I always thinking to continue our study at foreign country..
If one of our parent is not working,, it result in change in flow of money.. The income of a family is definitely decrease.. Although I didn't feel any change (in terms of shopping or when I ask some money,, well actually nothing is change),, but I have this intuition.. Intuition that makes me very depressed whenever I thinking about Japan : I CAN'T CONTINUE MY STUDY THERE.. Maybe I can continue my study.. Maybe I will take program to get "Registered Dietetitian (RD)" or perhaps Master of Public Health in University of Indonesia.. But,,
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,, I'm super sad.. Realizing that studying abroad will need a lot of money,, and then it will effect my brother's study..
AAARRGH,, a lot of sad thing is coming.. I don't know how to overcome it..
Hoping God will help me with a scholarship..
When I think about Japan,, the first thing that came in my head is (of course Arashi).. Although I fell in love with Japan from long long ago (and it's not because of Arashi),, but YES,, Arashi always comes first.. I have this dream : someday I will go to Japan to watch Arashi's concert.. And also,, continue my study..
Everytime I think about Japan,, I feel happy,, because I was thinking about Arashi.. When I thinking about Arashi,, I always remember their funny-foolish thingy.. And I always laughing..
But when I think about how much I want to continue my study in Japan,, it turns very sad..
The question is : WHY? WHAT HAPPENED?
As you may know,, I take major in Nutrition.. Maybe in about 8 months,, I will graduate and get my bachelor degree.. My future goal is take an undergraduate program,, and I decided to take program about clinical nutrition.. I want to learn about nutrition works on clinical field deeper,, so yeah,, I want to take it so bad..
And then I make a research about Universities that have undergraduate program in clinical nutrition.. The inclusion is University that have the program in clinical nutrition,, and it must in foreign country.. But not just an ordinary "foreign country".. It has to be near with Indonesia.. So I started my search on country,, such as Australia,, South Korea,, Philippine,, and of course JAPAN..
I found that clinical nutrition program is a little difficult to find.. But luckily,, I find it.. And as an addition : IT IS LOCATED IN JAPAN..!!! The University name is : TOKUSHIMA UNIVERSITY.. And it has an undergraduate program in clinical nutrition.. We have to study there for 2 years.. That will be super exciting,, that's what I'm thinking.. Studying in Japan and also an exclusive access to watch Arashi's variety show everydaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay..
It makes me so happy.. And I made up my mind : I WILL CONTINUE MY STUDY THERE..
But suddenly,, something happened.. My mother is not working anymore.. That makes everything change.. Now,, when I thinking about the past,, I never thought such thing happened.. I never thought that someday my mother will stop working,, and my family has to re-check about all the plans that requires a lot of money.. For example : STUDYING ABROAD.. In the past,, when both my parent are working,, my younger brother and I always thinking to continue our study at foreign country..
If one of our parent is not working,, it result in change in flow of money.. The income of a family is definitely decrease.. Although I didn't feel any change (in terms of shopping or when I ask some money,, well actually nothing is change),, but I have this intuition.. Intuition that makes me very depressed whenever I thinking about Japan : I CAN'T CONTINUE MY STUDY THERE.. Maybe I can continue my study.. Maybe I will take program to get "Registered Dietetitian (RD)" or perhaps Master of Public Health in University of Indonesia.. But,,
,,
,,
,,
,,
,, I'm super sad.. Realizing that studying abroad will need a lot of money,, and then it will effect my brother's study..
AAARRGH,, a lot of sad thing is coming.. I don't know how to overcome it..
Hoping God will help me with a scholarship..