Probably will be depressing...just a warning
I miss matt. I really really miss matt. This is so much harder to be away from him, than I thought it would. I lay awake at night wondering if he is alright. I freaked out because i realized we didn't pack him warm pj's and it will get very cold at night, especially since it is winter in the south pacific. 56 days until i get to see him again. Even when I go out with people, I am always thinking of Matt in the back of my mind. How is he? Is he doing ok? Is he taking care of himself? Is he having fun? He should eventually have e-mail, I hope. At least I can know he is alright that way, but it still won't be the same. I remember it being hard two years ago, but I don't remember being this depressed. All I want to do is lay in bed and read all day. At least I don't have to wallow in my own depression when I am reading. I think I will do that now, because this isn't helping me any.