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Josh is gone.
a 33 hour journey to florida
starting at 10.40 this morning.
it's almost unreal.
but it's hit me.
I talked to him last night for a while.
it was nice.
but when we said our good nights, all I could do was cry.
the last i love you
I balled for such a long time after.
i feel like shit.
I feel like an asshole because there's so much other shit that could be worse.
but it's not worse and yet
I'm making such a big deal out of it.
shitty.
I feel like I've lost my best friends.
both of them, the boy and the girl.
that hurts too.
I just want a friend who'll be here for me
and hang out with me all the time
and have us share lots of things
and just sit in a driveway at 1am and watch the stars.
not really have to talk, but still understand.
my stomach is all in knots
and I keep crying
and I feel like an asshole for crying
because there's no reason to.
uhhh whatever
a 33 hour journey to florida
starting at 10.40 this morning.
it's almost unreal.
but it's hit me.
I talked to him last night for a while.
it was nice.
but when we said our good nights, all I could do was cry.
the last i love you
I balled for such a long time after.
i feel like shit.
I feel like an asshole because there's so much other shit that could be worse.
but it's not worse and yet
I'm making such a big deal out of it.
shitty.
I feel like I've lost my best friends.
both of them, the boy and the girl.
that hurts too.
I just want a friend who'll be here for me
and hang out with me all the time
and have us share lots of things
and just sit in a driveway at 1am and watch the stars.
not really have to talk, but still understand.
my stomach is all in knots
and I keep crying
and I feel like an asshole for crying
because there's no reason to.
uhhh whatever