I Am Still Here

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I may lose a few friends over this entry.  I did break up with Christopher, and I was completely done with him.  Something happened that I could never have imagined.  He and I made up.  I never thought in a million years he and I would ever make up, and ever get back on the right page, but he and I did.  We started to communicate in a way that

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[starshine2night]

First...let me say that if he makes you happy, that is all I care about. You deserve to be happy.

He has some screwed up thoughts over what love should feel like, namely that there is always those butterfly feelings, and I am under the impression that those butterfly feelings naturally disipate.

When Joe and I got together, he was under the impression that "love" means feeling that great blaze. Now, he says that blaze always ended with him being burning. He says falling in love in the past was like a burning fire. Falling in love now, is like having a bridge to support him. Butterflys do happen, but not always. Fire does happen, but not always. I tend to find that love which happens fast and furious doesn't last. It burns out like a blaze that had all the wood thrown on. Love that growns slow tends to be like ivy growing up a wall. You don't realize that it's growing, but suddenly you look and it's all over. It tends to last longer and be much prettier for the long run. Joe and I have had long talks about it. I'm VERY glad that you guys are talking more. That's the key to everything.

*hugs* You know I love ya and support whatever choice you make. Just be careful. I hate seeing you hurt.

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I told him to talk to his counselor about the "butterfly feelings and if they last forever with true love." All I know is I do love him, and I love what is happening between us right now.