I Am Still Here
I may lose a few friends over this entry. I did break up with Christopher, and I was completely done with him. Something happened that I could never have imagined. He and I made up. I never thought in a million years he and I would ever make up, and ever get back on the right page, but he and I did. We started to communicate in a way that needed to happen a few years ago. I actually spent Christmas with him and his family, and my kids...Joey and Jason.
We went to my parent's house for their yearly Christmas Eve open house. Brett, Jason's dad, was there, and low and behold my Ex husband and his new wife showed up with their new baby together and the oldest daughter that Holly has, and Glenn might be adopting. How weird is that setting? Holly is so amazing, and I am so happy for Glenn to be married to her. Tessa, their new baby is beautiful, and took to me right away. Glenn was shocked that she didn't cry when I held her because apparently she cries when anyone other than her parents hold her. I guess I still have the touch. Chris actually likes Glenn, and says that he is a helluva nice guy. Glenn is a nice guy, it just goes to show what the influence of a bad woman can do to a man. We all had a wonderful evening together.
On Christmas evening we headed over to Christopher's cousin's house, for their holiday gathering. Lots of good food and laughter was had by all. I loved their white elephant exchange, and I especially love the gift I picked out. The person I got my gift from had recently been incarcerated, and is dirt poor. She bought a huge beer glass, and then burned three dvd's. The glass probably came from the dollar store, and we know that the prices are for the dvr's. What I loved was here this woman who probably didn't even have money to spend on her own child for Christmas came up with a way to participate. I was touched by her effort and wanting to be included. She is a very sweet lady, and I have talked to her several times and I still don't know what her name is. There is just something about her that draws me to her.
On New Year's Eve, Christopher and I were together. We brought in the New Year in a low key way. He and I stayed up and talked until 5am New Year morning. He and I have been together more than we have been apart. We have talked about the serious issues he and I have together, and we are actively working on them together. He has given me the control to make sure he takes his medications properly, and we are once again talking about the possibility of marriage. Now I am not going to hold my breath over the marriage possibility, as I am now not so sure that this is something I want right now in my life.
He has some screwed up thoughts over what love should feel like, namely that there is always those butterfly feelings, and I am under the impression that those butterfly feelings naturally disipate. I have spoken to several different people over the butterfly feelings and I have heard arguments going both ways. Honeslty, I don't know what the real answer is with that one.
What I do know is, he and I are back were we used to be, and that is all I care about right now.
We went to my parent's house for their yearly Christmas Eve open house. Brett, Jason's dad, was there, and low and behold my Ex husband and his new wife showed up with their new baby together and the oldest daughter that Holly has, and Glenn might be adopting. How weird is that setting? Holly is so amazing, and I am so happy for Glenn to be married to her. Tessa, their new baby is beautiful, and took to me right away. Glenn was shocked that she didn't cry when I held her because apparently she cries when anyone other than her parents hold her. I guess I still have the touch. Chris actually likes Glenn, and says that he is a helluva nice guy. Glenn is a nice guy, it just goes to show what the influence of a bad woman can do to a man. We all had a wonderful evening together.
On Christmas evening we headed over to Christopher's cousin's house, for their holiday gathering. Lots of good food and laughter was had by all. I loved their white elephant exchange, and I especially love the gift I picked out. The person I got my gift from had recently been incarcerated, and is dirt poor. She bought a huge beer glass, and then burned three dvd's. The glass probably came from the dollar store, and we know that the prices are for the dvr's. What I loved was here this woman who probably didn't even have money to spend on her own child for Christmas came up with a way to participate. I was touched by her effort and wanting to be included. She is a very sweet lady, and I have talked to her several times and I still don't know what her name is. There is just something about her that draws me to her.
On New Year's Eve, Christopher and I were together. We brought in the New Year in a low key way. He and I stayed up and talked until 5am New Year morning. He and I have been together more than we have been apart. We have talked about the serious issues he and I have together, and we are actively working on them together. He has given me the control to make sure he takes his medications properly, and we are once again talking about the possibility of marriage. Now I am not going to hold my breath over the marriage possibility, as I am now not so sure that this is something I want right now in my life.
He has some screwed up thoughts over what love should feel like, namely that there is always those butterfly feelings, and I am under the impression that those butterfly feelings naturally disipate. I have spoken to several different people over the butterfly feelings and I have heard arguments going both ways. Honeslty, I don't know what the real answer is with that one.
What I do know is, he and I are back were we used to be, and that is all I care about right now.