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I cried today. And they were the happiest tears I ever felt. I cried in sorrow, I cried in pain, I cried because I couldn't kill someone and get away with it. The rain from the heavens show I'm not the only one weeping. I shouldn't be so weak. Forgive me I shouldn't smile so weak. What the hell is that pounding? The rain outside seems to only get heavier with each one of my tears. Why are my eyes watering? I don't remember any loss. I don't remember any faliurs. I can only remember the outside and it's beautiful forgiving rain. What the hell is that pounding! I cant think! Fuck, I think it has stopped. The world is no longer crying with or for me. It's just myself, it's always been myself. I'll always be by myself.