fridag
thank you for the kind words in my last entry. i've been meaning to update this in a while because the previous one looks all sad and though i felt sad it didn't come out quite right. actually my grandmother's funeral some weeks ago made me finally take some important steps to better my situation. of all the funerals of family members through the years, this was the worst in the sense that i had never felt more alone and i had never felt more like someone i do not want to be. the final straw was having to hide behind the church to solve a work crisis, letting a dumb job ruin the day dedicated to her memory.
so after that i did a lot of thinking and had a big talk with the boss, listing up all my projects. i hadn't even gotten to the part about how it's humanly impossible to do them all before she immediately realised it herself. so now i have one project less. it'll still be busy and i still plan to leave, but now i might have time to have some sort of life outside of the job.
i don't really know what else i have done this fall. i can only remember like 3 or 4 times i had a social life with people outside of work. in november i went to London with a friend and i kind of don't know if it was a good or a bad time. it's like i haven't been present in anything i've been doing.
today i had the day off and for the first time in i don't know how long. i actually slept 8 hours straight without waking up 4-5 times AND managed to not check my work mail or pick up my mobile for an entire day. this is very new to me!